Take one step back to make two steps ahead.

I guess we humans, being warm-blooded animals, will have feeling for the past and take a look back. Well, I know a lot of people will be blogging (or had already in some cases of my friends LOL!) about the year of 2007 before a new year arrive. I am also following suit too, to reflect and take a look back at all the things that I had done this year.

End of year 1. Like finally, and off to work work and more work. Haha, money never seems to be enough then. Then came bAoc'07. Though I didn't went for most of the preparations, I guessed the 3days of events really did make me grow attached to the Gusto Yamataikoku family. All the cam-whorings, jokes and teasing of one another. All the new friends found. All the cheeky cheers that we had. Feli-meli being the best SB for the group. Man, it's been long since we had gathered, ever since the frisbee periods, we hadn't really met up for quite a while. Some are oversea having attachments, some are busy with school works. Haha, hope all the best for them in the new year!

With the splitting up of TB11 in year 2, all of us went into different classes. Call it a blessing in disguise, although I went into a class with the worst timetable imaginable, I was in the same class again with Sooxian, Henry, MingJie and Sherwin. "Mini Tb11" like what others called us, this small group really did bond us closer. We studied together, we ate together, we went into toilet together, we slept together... alright getting a little bit cheeky here. Yea I really appreciate the times that we cared for and protect one another. And the formation of the DWWs with me being in an even higher position. Haha! Well, being the outgoing and sociable person I am, I also made new friends in the new class. What left the deepest impression would be Iok Khai. Smart ass fellow with an attitude no one like. But I somehow do appreciate his friendship. All the talking cocks and hangout at our haunt really did made me think twice about him, in a positive way =) And I need to thank him too, for the souvenir all the way from Mexico. I also made friends with the others, like that aunty which belongs to MJ the 2nd (no offence dude!) and the others.

Then came along attachment. I think I am one of the luckiest in the clique, being attached together with 27 other schoolmates at IRAS Call Center. Seriously, the lessons there maybe boring, but we do find our own entertainment. Then all hell broke loose when we were sent to work. Haha, I should be lucky enough to be located right in the middle of everyone, thus being able to interact with everyone. With my evil twin terror Xi Yao back facing me, "eh wah x2" Shidahbeck beside him and the ever bubbly small sulky squirrel Yi Ye beside him, and Crystal Poh the joker beside me, with Jolene Koh my bitching mate beside me, and mischevious Ben, fake Malaysian Wei Sheng, Wheelpower president Edward, "Mayi monsoe" Keng Nguan, "Lepak sup rokok" khaki Fiza, "forever hungry" Jeslyn, Ze Jia, Hong Ting and the others really did made my attachment days enjoyable. All the stupid jokes, pranks and "Punk'd!", not forgetting all the memorable and Hall of Fame calls we had, and the funny "soups" that always never fails to make us laugh while guiding us. I thank all of you for all the fun! =D

Then the ultimate, unimaginable formation of TB02. Anyone in NP who has to select class will know how tough it is to get into the same class with your cliques. Let alone us, all 12 of us squeezed into it. Most of us from TB11, with addition of Karen, Shermain and Kevin. Formidable tactics and strategy. LOL! Alright back to business. Yea it is fun to be with this bunch of people. All the manual jokes, celebrations, staying overs, gossips, song composing, house visits, and much more really did make us bond closer. Some of us had even matured much from attachment, and some of us had found new love, be it in person or hobbies. And I would like to express my utmost gratitude to you all, for understanding me when I was in deep stress, for all the concerns that you all showered on me. This is one of the best reason why I hanged on, and why I'm loving school! =D

Now for the second reason. BA Society. Seriously, I never thought my life would change that much. With the schedule that I have; preparations, booth duties, trial runs, camps, events. Boy am I busy or what? But like what my saying goes, "One big family", I guess the company that we have is what drives us to work harder. Guess we pretty much see the fruits of our labour, with the biggest and juiciest yet to come. Being a leader and leading by example will be something I never thought I would do. Haha. Guess it's the job and friends made that allow me to enjoy in what I'm doing, thus motivating me to do more. Now BA Society is like a direct substitution for my part-time job in year 1, with some of my friends complaining that I spent too much time in it. Well I think it perhaps all goes down to my commitment and responsibilities that I should have known and bear when I first join, and the promises that I made so some. Haha, and I think I learnt a lot from BA Society, exposing me to all sorts of things outside curriculum, and literally when I'm on stage as the emcee for Talento Tiempo. And all the other friends made during the camps and events. =D

Okay I think that should be all for NP stuffs. Yes RV now it's your turn. Most of my friends from the class of 2004 has changed a lot. All the guys have shaved their heads and joined in the ranks of the Botak Boys. Guess NS really separates the boys from men. I can see a lot of them maturing from there, and being more responsible in their actions. Well, the class of 2005 which just graduated from JCs will soon join the Botak Boys club. Haha. I happen to well, look through some of the photos through the Internet medium of Friendsters and blogs and I somehow couldn't even recognise some of my friends. Most had became prettier and better looking after ditching the white nurse uniform. So the saying is true, that when RV girls shed off their uniforms they will be like a ugly duckling which turned into a beautiful swan. Haha. It's been long since i visit the campus, missing people which turned a point in my life positively, and missing those people who believed in me. People like Ms Ek, Mrs Look, Ms Teo, Chen Quan Loong lao shi(happy marriage eh!), Xie Lao Shi (okay I think she retired), Lim Kim Choo lao shi and many other. And my dearest Ah Hua Jie! Hehe.. anyone wants to go back with me??

2007 also made it a year where I fulfilled my dreams. My baby sitting right behind me at the cost of $1k. Fanatastic buy! Finally a drum set in my home. Woohoo! And a new mp3 player which I recently bought, much to the envy of many =x Haha okay be modest MingJun! And finally registering for driving license. But there's still one dream which had yet to be fulfill though: my tattoo. Haha.

This year has also seen a dramatic change in my family. Grandpa got ill suddenly and was hospitalised, making all of us worried. I could still remember that day when my mum called me halfway through KPT's lesson, crying on the phone telling me that my grandpa was sent to the hospital. How I rushed out of class after lesson ended, and ignoring Wee Kok on the way out (oops). How much my heart pains when I see him with all the tubes and the words that came out of his mouth, and how I tried to fight back my tears but failed. Oh god please bless my grandpa with good health for the coming years! And how my grandma suddenly had to put a bandage over her knee to keep herself warm. Well I suppose that's life, and it has to go on. The younger ones grow up, the middle-aged grows old, and the old ones grow weak. But still, seeing the smile during joyous occasions do make me feel blessed to be in the family. My dad and mum are still in the pink of health, and my sis is doing well in her job, being the assistant manager within a few months. She's in Bago City now doing her annual volunteering works, and I hope that she will return home safely! =D Haha, I think most of you will be shocked at how much I blogged about this part cause I seldom speak about my family.

2007. What a year. Learning much more that I expected, excelling in things that I never imagined. All the ups and downs of the emotional rollercoaster, all the politics around everywhere, all the new friends found. Let all hope that 2008 will be a greater year, with all of us working harder, playing even harder! Stay happy and positive all! And please, pray for world peace. Signing off with well wishes for the new year! Happy new year and a happy 2008! =D

wonder women.

I don't know why I just have a sudden urge to blog. Hah. Anyway let me wish RODNEY a happy birthday! Stay happy dude and continue to rock on. =D

Alright so nowadays will be projects chionging day. Rushing for 4 projects which deadlines are all next week. I can't wait for next fri to come seriously. By then all the projects should be submitted or more or less done, and 4f gathering. Come quick!

And suddenly I feel that women in my house are seriously wonder women. My mum, being a butcher is tough enough. Wthe hen I used to work in the market in her, I couldn't imagine how she can always find the strength to crush the bones of the pigs, cutting them into pieces. And then again looking after me, and tolerate my nonsense. Haha, wonder mum.

Now my sister. I just saw her volunteering video not long ago. Was touched. Seriously touched. The kids at Bago City, Philippines are seriously more pathetic and in need of help than most of the kids here. It is amazing, how I appreciate her work to the society even though I am not the recipients. Although we used to bicker (even till now we sometime do..), I am proud to have her as my sister. Now I understand why she find so much joy in doing it. Maybe one year when I am free I can go do oversea volunteering works with her. Haha.

All right, I think I better stop here. Let me wish all a Happy New Year in advance first. And our 小胃公主 a happy 18th on new year eve! =D

feed the world.

Never had I thought sending email is tough enough, especially when there are thousand plus recipients. Haha.

So had thanksgiving dinner with my classmate just now. Kinda cool of us to have such a Singaporean dinner of zi char to celebrate x'mas. Amazingly but we enjoyed the meals with joy and laughter.

And sister pu is now in Bago City. Hopefully all is well there and that she remember to buy present back for me. Hah, actually a lot of my secondary school friends should be going abroad to buy gifts for me after their A's.

You know sometime when something seems to be a love-hate affair to you? You're in such a dilemma, in a state of confusion to even think properly. This feeling sucks totally, and I'm sure people around me will feel the same way too. Oh well, all I can say is beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.

Wow I came to realise what a random post this is. Maybe just to blog about my thoughts and feeling these few days. Too many running through my precious brain, overflowing. Haha okay before I end this entry, shall share with you one of my favorite x'mas song. (I know it's over but this song just rock down the house totally!). Enjoy!

shagged..............

BAMP! is finally over. 3 days of fun and excitement, 3 days of work leads to total shaggy-ness. LOL! And thanks to everyone who cheered us on, like what the motto goes, "Your Enthusiasm, Our Motivation". Heh, shall upload some photos when i get them.

Speaking of Society, I realised I haven't blog my thank-you entry to them for my birthday. I know it's a little too late but here goes...

Yue Shun: Haha thanks bro for acc me when the times come. Really need it. And all these while learning and controlling the treasury hasn't been easy but still, we will carry out our responsibilities. All these years I know you, you changed a lot, for the better that is. Keep on striving and all the best! Thanks again! =D

Christina: Boon! Thanks for all the car rides and jokes around eh! And for being there when time arises, for that everlasting smile which spurs us to work on harder! Your experiences really do helps us alot. Thanks! =D

Wilson: You will never walk alone. Haha my fellow Kop fan. Thanks for the wishes and faster get your car and drive us around. When are we going to your house and ton eh? And don't worry we will find you a scandal soon. =D

Wei Ting: Shaggy Luo. Haha thanks for the well wishes and being in MSA! Eat more protein stuffs and gym more to grow big muscles. Cheerios DK! =D

Dee: Haha daughter tan. Thanks to you I start to have my BIG family. So many grandchildren. And my fellow MSA mate, when are you going to find my son-in-law? =D

Kelvin: Hey so are you my son-in-law or grandson? Lol thanks for being there at the celebration though you didn't sing much. Haha cheer up and work hard! Oh and thanks for lending me your fmgt notes too! =D

Siu Cing: Daughter Po, don't think too much about stuffs and stay happy eh! K lah next time let you touch my product red lah to reward your dedication in cleaniness. Heh thanks for the celebration too eh! =D

Daisy: Alright so you want strawberry jam or blueberry jam? Lol, stay happy and eat more my filial grand-daughter! Remember your meals and not let ah gong worry over your gastric eh! Cheers! =D

Indah: Nenek! You are already the Goddess spirit among our family =x Heh okay lah really enjoyed the bus rides home with you. And having $1000 per month is much more than what we get so, when's our meal? =D

Gary: Please note that we shared the same room but slept on different bed. Heh okay listen to more happy chinese songs eh! K lah smile more! =D

Winson: Hey thanks for the well-wishes! =D

Wan Qi: Hey hey i didn't left you out eh! Ah Qi Qi enjoy your stay in China and all the best over there! Cheers =D


Alright I guess that should be all who wished me. Heh alright I think I shall take a short nap for now. Slept for 12hours after BAMP! straight, which made me overslept for work today. Have fun and happy holidays people!

fun! =D

Woohoo! I'm don't know what has got into me but I am feeling this adrenaline rush in me! This the season to be jolly~~

Alright, so went to stay over at 小胃公主 with the rest of the class on monday. Haha fun throughout, with all the jokes and stupid comments made. Night bicycle ride with Ming Jie and Ah Boy, from Keat Hong to CCK park to Teck Whye to Bbdc (speaking of which, I should go for my BTT soon -.-") to Rod's house to Ah Boy's house to Sooxian's house to Hillview to railway track to Bukit Panjang to Teck Whye (again!) then back to Keat Hong. Lol and my butt still hurts a little bit =/ Yea then had our own miniature sports day and short mahjong session before ending it with a quite, sensitive and mature discussion session. Hah! Yea more get together soon!

So Ah Boy is now with Thai 妹 sawadeekup-ing, with Ming Jie following later. Haha, X'mas is coming and so is the celebrations! Yes Rod and Hui'er? Heh..

"Booking in" for BAMP! later, better sleep awhile now if not I doubt I can rest well with fear of free mint facial! Rock on people!

who needs a break?

Phew finally the torturous common test is over! It had been putting the pressure on my mental side, with my evil side procrastinating to study. No high hopes for results =/ But anyway holidays are here so time to cheer! As always, I am very optimistic and happy go lucky. HAHA!

Okay brief recap. After paper on Friday hit the down for our "post-CT celebration" with my class. Watched a kid movie which I slept like 95% through out the movie. So much so for the magical touches of toys and rating from newspaper. Heh. Then had a family gathering today. My ah gong's birthday dinner. Sumptuous meal, and good entertainment watching Star Awards '07 on the large projection by the restaurant. Yeap, it's been a while since I get to meet my folks, so I was rather pissed everything ended so fast and early. -.-" Nvm I think there will be a sequel tmr, steamboat at my grandma's house! Woohoo I'm gonna defy the positive point of my previous entry.

So holidays are here, and I have 3 projects to rush and works to cover and a camp in the coming weekend. Holiday? Lol how ironic. But getting excited about the camp coming up! Woots! Oh ya and I gotta meet my sec sch friends real soon, before some of them join in the Botak Gang. Yea 4F people if you all are reading this, please date me out real soon yea? I'm beginning to reminisce the secondary school laughters. =)

(#*$&@)(#*$@#@(*&^

Never had I felt so despair before. I think that the aftermath of my lack in discipline and over-confidence. Oh for f**k sake FOCUS PLEASE MINGJUN! *slap myself upside down*

Alright, BLaw owned me today. Totally. I just don't know why I don't have the drive or motivation to study. This is completely different from why I wanted to enter poly. The positive feeling is gone. Or maybe I just seek the thrill of last minute work.

Anyway, you people don't need to console or worry for me. Life has it's up and down, but my down is only a short period. I guess that this down is just like, the opposite effect to my celebrations and high time lately. But I'm still very happy, that recently, a lot of people said that I had slimed down. Woohoo! Happy. =)


*I just need somewhere to vent my feelings!*

final teenage celebration

So touched. So loved. So happy.

Yea so yesterday was my birthday. I must really thank all who remember it, and wish me in one way or another. Felt so loved, really appreciate it. Celebration started the day before, was with bA society people. Well only a few turned up and I know it's the mugging period so thanks to you people who turned up. Ah Gong here very happy liao. Haha, had dinner and sang K. Yay! Thanks for everything again. One big family! =D

Then the actual day was spent with my classmate. Oh I'm loving TB02. Thanks so much for everything, for understanding me, for giving me the happy moments, for the jokes and for the lameness. Thank you all once again for all the surprises, and the Braun Buffel wallet, the cards and everything.

Alright this will get long for the individual thanks. Too many people to thank.


Rod-de-ney: Alright I put your name first but this mean nothing. Haha. Thanks for everything, the good times we shared, the stupid stuffs(manual) we do, the freedom of speech and thought. And thank you for understanding me too! Really brother ji gu wei!

Sim Ah Seng: Thank you for people there for me when I'm down. For understanding me with my problems. For being frank with me so that I can learn. And for all the laughters that we had share. At least I know I can rely on someone in time of needs. You rock on dude.

SooXian aka Boy aka 大胃王#2: Okay lady please me more feminine. Haha, all the stupid actions of yours really hilarious. And for understanding me well too, even though I dont really talk to you much about my problems. Haha, and classmates since first sem. Brother neng gu wei! =x

Henry aka 大胃王#1: Yup another classmate since I entered poly. Thanks for being the "老二" in class. The responsible one, the caring one and my khaki under the bridge. Hah, you know you have leadership skills just that you are "shy". So how's my Makan Sutra book coming along? Heh oh well thanks again for all the ice creams. =D

Sherwin aka Ah Boy aka 大胃王#4: Woohoo! Thanks for your ever childish thinking and actions which made us laugh the hell up. Yes IT savvy kid, you have a talent in designing. Thank you once again for the iPod Nano, but yet again I paid the money. Haha! 11, 01, 02. The Simpsons................

Karen aka Sugar-mummy: Thanks for the card once again. Cheer up and smile more okay? You indeed brought a lot of life into our lives. Haha, thank you once again for always being there for each other. And please, try to be more demure. Oh and thanks to you I passed my AAA, beyond my expectation some more. =D

Wei Xia aka 大胃王#3: Whey! Lol, alright thanks for all the encouragement and support you had given me. All the laughters and the sarcasm. And the speed learning lesson and summary for all modules. Haha, and thanks to your DIY skills, my eagle was alive once again, for a short moment. Cheers!

Ming Jie: Dude stop imposing me as MJ. Haha, well thanks for the being direct to me, allowing me to learn. And sharing those philosophies you have. Deep thinker think more, it's good for the brain. And thanks to your alcohol and lodging. 谢谢你！

Hui'er aka 小胃公主: Okay DWW give you special privileges to join in our meals. Heh. Bubbly Minnie Mouse thanks for everything. Your innocence really brought that special something to the class. Thanks for the well wishes and being there for us! Rock on girl!

Shermain: Pua turtle... LOL! Thanks for the cute tortoise keychain you gave me. And being so responsive to my call for audition candidates. You sing well, be confident. Yea and cheer up, anything can comfort in us. We will always stand by each other.

Kevin: Eh botak! Haha, chick magnet stop cheating girls already =x Alright new classmate but good classmate eh. It's good to see you being able to adapt yourself real fast. Thanks for the wishes and one day we shall work out tgt!

Pearlynn: Thanks for asking the whole Pizza4u crew to wish me a happy bday. Haha, and thanks to the delicious pizza treat! Yea, and thanks for coming to lecture just for my bday. Work hard for CTs yea, you're still older than me. Hahaha can't deny the fact.

Rachel: You take care eh, though I know you wont be seeing this. And please eat when it's the time. Health is more important. Thanks again!

William,Neddely, Melissa Tan, Zhu Zeng, Boon, Yvonne, Lavinia: Haha I don't know how you all get to know my bday but anw, Thank you very much! Really appreciate it!

BA Society: Thanks for all the surprises and present. Thanks for allowing me to learn so much. Thanks to my growing family size, somehow making me feel so blessed with all my filial daughters, grandchildren and great-grandchildren. Let's work harder for a better tmr alright! And happy belated bday once again to Penguin!

IRAS attachment people: Yea thank you people for the well-wishes. Good luck for CTs and don't be a Mayi Monsoe or s/o Danny Ramesh! Heh, and Happy bdae to Keng Nguan too! Welcome to Club19. LOL!

Gusto Yamatai: Yes thanks some of you who wished me. Really touched to see that you all still remember my bday. Meet up soon yea!

4Funkiology: Alright seems like almost all of you are very free. Finished A's should be quite a happy thing. Freedom for you all now. Haha, thanks again to some of you to wish me a very happy bday. Meet up soon too yea? Maybe a bbq or maybe just a gathering for dinner. Once again, thank you all so much.

Xiu Li: Amazing I was quite surprised to see your sms. It's cool to know that, 6years down and you still remember my birthday. Thank you once again! Cheers!

Pei Qi: Yes girl thank you for your well wishes. How's life after O's eh? Stay cool and rock on! =D

Kai Hong: Yo bro! Thanks for the well wishes and good luck for your FYP! =D

Wei Long Ferinna: Yea thank to you two lovely dovey couple. Haha! Jiayou for attachment and exams!

Derrick: Botak time to meet up soon yea. I want to touch your head. Heh, and yea, where's my lobang??

Haha, took me so long to finish this entry but I ain't complaining. This is satisfying to show how much I treasure these well wishes. That should be around there. Haha well cheers everyone and yeap, good luck for your future endeavors too! =D With much love from me!!

The American life.

I think my bio clock is spoilt. Sleeping at the wrong hour and doing works at unearthly hour. I feel as if I am a hunter in the night, being so ever active at night and dead in the day. Hopefully this is only a temporary effect from the hectic schedule I had because I don't think I can afford to live this lifestyle during the common test period. Speaking of which, I should or rather, I must get to my books real soon because I really don't understand a single thing taught this semester.

Haha, so finally Talento-Tiempo is over. I feel that it is quite a good job well done by all. Thanks to the project heads, my co-host emcee, the helpers, the participants, and audience and my ever so enthusiastic supporters despite the fact that I was not even competing in any category. Yeap can see that we did not really prepare ourselves well but we pulled it through anyhow. A splendid and memorable night I must say. =D

After the show, packing up and debrief, had dinner around 0130. Like a bit of the early for dinner already but was too hungry then. Haha, then some of the guys just came my house to stay overnight, a cheaper alternative than cabbing back to individual home. All their msn nick was, "@mj's house. FEELING!". I think I can foresee more of these to come around March. Haha..

And FMGT project is finally O-V-E-R! Woohoo~! Another load off my mind and back. It was all right I guess, expecting some satisfactory grade. Time to concentrate on the common test!

sweeter than sugar

Finally a well-deserved break today. So I went to watch Enchanted with some of my classmates, like after so long, most of us are free. Yay! Well, the movie is not actually only for children, cause I don't think kids will understand all these romantic scenes in the movie. Quite okay I suppose, with a slight little sudden twist towards the end which was highly expected. Alright so this movie I shall give it a passing grade. (Lol, when did I become a movie critic?)

Okay, then walked around Plaza Singapura while searching for some stuffs. Had a lot of fun doing grocery shopping, and then to the nonsensical talk that we alway have. It's just feel so good to be have this bunch of steady bom bi bi friends around who will bring you endless entertainment. Hah.

Well, had a familiar and comfortable talk with Boy just now. It just feel so, how do I describe it, warm and great to have someone who understand you and will give you positive encouragements. I know everyone have been showing their support, and that sometime when you're alone with another friend, the feeling is especially distinct that you will be happy to know that there will alway be a friend around to catch when you fall. (Alright not literally cause I'm not that light you see hahaha!)

Oh, and today during lunch, Seng and 小胃公主 were talking to me about my current life. They told me they are getting worried for me, for working so hard for everything. I feel really touched to know that they really do care about me. I really do. And they do really understand my plight. Guess like what I said before, I have to finish this chapter of life to move on, and to fulfill my responsibilities and trust that others placed upon me. =) And prove to others what we are truly made of, the strength from within that will overcome all obstacles in front of us. Revenge is alway sweet. =x

Alright time for me to sleep too. These two days will be "凶" for me. Haha!

Talento-Tiempo(BA Talentime) will be on Wednesday, 28 Nov, 1730 - 2200. Ticket charged at $1 each. Have you got yours yet?

fyi I am still persistent in getting my tattoo.

Cause the hardest part ot it,

Anyone who understands me well will know that I am more or less a freedom fighter. I fight for my own rights and reasons. I even planned to put a "Born Free" tattoo come December. Still, I find it hard for me to believe what I had seen.

Ultimate disgust.
It's hard on me to act ignorant to this incident. Now I understand why the Government is so sensitive towards the issue of stayers and quitters. Why bite the hand which fed you? I don't understand why, or how you can bear to write down all these things down. Is there so much anguish and hatred that this must be done? I am utterly disappointed, seriously after all I still treat the 3 of you as part of the family. Maybe I was wrong to still regard you all in, but I can never forget the experiences we had, the jokes we share and the hurting words that left a scar to this friendship.

I guess this has affected the morale of the team. It is to an all time low, like the bear tumbling down the stock market. This blow is too much to take for all, and had overwhelmed most of our thoughts I suppose. Each day I cannot help but to be pessimistic and think, that this incident may be the trigger to the nuclear invasion and kill us all.

But I seriously do hope that we can walk out of this shadow and strive for a better and brighter future. We shall and we must, no matter what. We will work harder to provide better results, and work harder to prove others that we are as one. Those who happens to read this, and know that you are directly involved in it, I hope my previous and current post will serve as a reminder and motivation to you. Thank you. =)

warmer than the sun, colder than the galaxy.

When confessions come to a teary end, what would you be affected? Feel sad and keep quiet? Or would you rather try your best to make the situation change for a better? Personally I will go forward with the latter. It's unlike me to get all emo and sunken down, and I will rather be a jovial person with the high octane to motivate others (lest I irritate them).

So another one has left, I shan't comment much on this. Usually I wouldn't blog such confidential thing in here but I just don't know why I have the urge and feeling to do so now. One by one, they left this family citing personal reasons, such as unable to cope with the schedule or no real sense of belonging. When one leave, we may be able to point fingers and push away responsibilities. But as one by one starts to drift away, I guess it pretty much a matter of both parties.

Often during such undesired situation there will bound to be self-reflection upon our part. Had we not done enough to make them feel at home? Had we not try our best to help each others in time of need? Just how much is the best, and where is the line that draws staying and leaving apart? Such answers I suppose, can and will never be clear enough for explanations.

Then again, everyone will feel that they are at most of the time, correct in one way or another. I am no exception. Looking back, don't I face these problems before? The opportunity cost of being responsible as a part of the family, or a part of my family. Is it better to stay on, or to go along? The decision was rather clear that I had to finish this business. Persevere on and walk the whole journey. I believe that the fruit of labour will be much more sweeter than what I had expected. The road may be tough but I am a tanker, I will not fall upon any setbacks.

Maybe different people have different personal problems that are unable to be cite. I respect their decision, I cannot change the outcome anyway. Maybe what we see are only the surface, but deep down the complicated matters may had made it hard for everyone. Nevertheless, I seriously hope that the remaining us that are left standing will hold on together. I had never ever been so committed to the extent of having felt the disappointment and sadness when someone call it quits.

Come on, we are a part, not apart. When you need someone to talk to, just feel free to find any of us. Keeping matters to yourself for a long period of time is unhealthy, and maybe two minds can create a better solution. We know that someone within us will always be there to support one another. We are one big family after all.

*chuckles*
I can't help but to slap myself when saying that "we are one big family". I just don't know why, though we seems pretty much comfortable with each other's company, but deep down inside I feel that there are strings that are being pulled, to the benefits or negative effects. I seriously feel that being true to each other will help create a better and more comfortable atmosphere to each other.

*take a deep breathe*
Oh well! I believe the route to a happier live is to be forgiving. Though I will never forget, and I believe no human just erase bad memories off the back of their mind just like how we delete files with just a click of the mouse, I seriously do look forward for a better and brighter future by ignoring these bad days. Let us move forward from this point and create a more comfortable and loving family. We shall and we must, for all the responsibilities that we have to carry out, for all the pride we must preserve, and all the trust that are placed upon us. =)

Why have you forsaken me?

So many things to do, so little time to do it.


Sometime life is full of opportunity cost, making decision to do things that deems more important than others. Yes I have times which I feel remorseful not to fulfill one's promise, yet I was forced with no choice but to execute another mission. Feel regretful seriously sucks big time. Oh well...

I came to understand that sometimes, it will be better to have someone close to you who understand you truthfully, whom you can cry your heart out to. This would be so much better than having a lot of contacts, yet none will be able to bring you up when you're down and out. I must be thankful to have such a good social circle around me in life, with my classmates and secondary school mates being with me when the time arise. And not to forget all the brotherhood that I have outside, though sometime they may bastard you for fun, joy and laughter.

This company I will cherish and hold on for as long as I can, but sometime I wish I will have more time for everyone. Like what many of us have blogged before, "If only there is 48hours in a day instead of 24hours"; realising that we have to make full use of time would be better. =)

Setting in a honeymoon.

Busy busy busy busy! Battled the busy schedule this week, and looking forward to battle the schedule for the coming weeks too! Academic, personal, society and many others! Human politics are real tiring I must say, but nevertheless I don't think I would be so much bothered by it. Call me selfish, but as long as no one step on my tail I won't bite.

Haha on the brighter note, most of my secondary school friends would have completed their A's or left with one paper. Yayness! Hopefully we can meet up soon before some of the guys join in "The Botak Boys clan".

And yesterday was ShuXian's birthday. Boy was it grand, so many people wishing her through different medium. From the singing below her block, to the dedication on Radio Heatwave, to the many surprises here and there. Not to forget the formation of many different clans just popped out instantaneously during photo-taking. I think the number of photos and flashes that night could sum up to the total number photos she had taken for the 17years behind. Heh, anyway here wishing the Boy a wonderful splendid Happy 18th Birthday. I will save the touching words to myself, and I think she will know it anyway. =)

Alright, have to buck up this coming weeks. Tests and projects will be coming in full force. Endure!

Let's talk Love!

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So here's a short logic question to all:
When you see advertisements on your home's tv set promoting newer tv sets with function such as HD and true colours, don't you think they defeat their own purpose as we can see their function equally on our own tv set through the ads? Get it?

Makes me wonder too. Oh well, with me around, it's never hard to imagine. Hehehe...

Halfway to heaven but a foot stuck in reality.

Hello all! First thing, Happy Deepavali to all the Hindu! Haha, actually I'm also celebrating the new year with them, through working though. Their festivals is equivalent to my work. If you know where I am working at that is. Dhey thumbi~

Okay, so I have figured out quite some ridiculous common phrase which does not match logic these few days.

1. "Men are from Mars, women are from Venus." - Bullshit! All human being come from Mother Earth please!

2. "You better watch what you are saying." - Erm, how do you watch something that is supposed to be heard?

3. "Wah lau why you shit/fart so smelly one?" - Doesn't all smell bad? Where can you find one pleasant smelling shit/fart?

4. "Eh you know what I dreamt about last night?" - Ya I will know only after you finish your story.

5. "Wah tonight got star leh!" - You mean yesterday and tomorrow have no stars? Get your astronomy facts right kid!

6. "You cut your hair huh?" - No I don't cut my hair, I went for a haircut and the stylist cut for me.

7. "This taste so awful. You want to try?" - What good friend you are. Thanks but no thanks.

8. "Stop eavesdropping on us! Don't listen anymore!" - If only I am Jumbo the Elephant and i can just flap to cover my ears.


Haha, pretty true for some right? Oh well perhaps that what make life interesting and funny. =)

when sin's deep in my blood

Woah seems like I haven't been blogging for quite a while. Maybe I am too busy with personal works and other commitment but never mind as least I am updating now.

So BAMP! trial run was over the weekend. Tiring but fun! Haha feel that I get to know more about the SCOs and such. No one dared to sleep at night, either playing cards or lepak one corner; all of us didn't dare to sleep because of colgate lurking around. And I played basketball from 3 plus all the way till 6 plus. Shiok! I haven't played basketball for such a long time already. That's explain my legs being so tired at the end of the camp.

At night had bbq with the IRAS interns. Quite long since we last catch up. As always we are so crappy. We watched the match between Arsenal and ManU, wih so much comments going flying about at Ben's place.

School's starting for about 3 weeks already and I haven't really get to know my modules much. The result of not going to lectures, not paying attention to lessons. Haha too cooped up with commitments and personal stuffs may be just an excuse. I do really need to organise my time and schedule well.

Woots going to get a new mobile later. After my phone has died out for so long, and thanks to Karen for lending me her spare's. Alright till next time ma homies!

ready for verbal battle.

I haven't been blogging lately not because I'm lazy, but I am just very BUSY! ohmy thanks god MSA Camp is over! it was a success! one load off my shoulder. haha, I really enjoyed the camp a lot, and I hope that the rest of the campers do as well. and sorry to those who unfortunately had toothpaste on their face. all in the name of fun, joy and laughter i suppose. haha.

well guess I got to understand the SCOs better, after all the interaction and such. some are simply the best cockster I must say, all the stupids and nonsensical jokes around simply just made the atmosphere much more friendlier. and I also got to interact with past MC seniors, learning some pointers from them on handling cases.

rest for these few days before starting battle against a corrupt system and a stupid system. plus I will be working for the next consecutive days because my friend is going to Taiwan and I need to substitute him for work at his dad's shop. oh money money here I come! I need to start to earn my keep again!

suddenly i see.

suddenly i miss taking out my temp staff pass and tap in on the door. suddenly i miss walking into the area and see lotsa familiar faces around, all chatting or busy at work. suddenly i miss logging in to IRIN and open all the different dialouge. suddenly i miss pressing my 3946 and manual in, hanging the headset over my neck. suddenly i miss talking to taxpayers. haha. suddenly i miss leaning back to talk to partner in crime, shidahbeck and budah kecik. suddenly i miss the brownies crystal made. suddenly i miss suaning at my table mate, tai tai koh. suddenly i miss looking across to keng nguan and sing all the stupid songs. suddenly i miss standing up, turning around to speak to weisheng, baba, ben, lao bu, eugene, sha and edward. suddenly i miss the lunch time at novena square, united square, the ever delicious chicken rice behind and the kb uncle who always kena cursed by us. suddenly i miss the supervisor. suddenly i miss my attachment.

well i guess i left a tinge of feeling over there with the rest, but life's like that. actually i really enjoyed my attachment, with all the bulls and shit around the work area, it's hard not to have fun. well work with no play makes jack a dull boy, even though my name is not jack. but things come and go, and i guess we move on. nvm there's still a bbq coming soon and i can see the rest of the people again!

so school's starting soon. like 7weeks passed so fast. back to the busy schedule of academic and cca stuffs. together with all the familiar faces in my class, i'm must say i am really looking forward for this coming semester. haha more funs will be coming up for sure! till then when i update! =D

tidur tidur~

seems like i really resemble a bear. yours truly brother bear hibernated the whole of today, haha, storing all the tiredness for the past few weeks. and when i finally do woke up, it was like the time when my fellow colleagues dismiss from work. but nvm, i take it as a good break from work, well, actually with just 2days left. haha and my mum was keep complaining about me, cannot even wait for another 3days still want to pon-tang (rather amazing to hear this work from her) and my dad saying that in future, i will store all my off-days and take clear leaves at one go. we shall see eh..

and sorry to some of my friends, your daily morning caller broke down today. =/ in any case where you all are late, i'm sorry.

and i'm so happy i finally get my new pair of af1. woots! and my mum promise to buy a hp over the weekend, or maybe next. double happiness. now i have to work and save money for other stuffs like mp3s and tattoo at the end of this year, and another pair of dunks during the end of sem. work work save save spend spend. ohgod let me strike lottery!

politics.

the tide seems to have calm down a little bit. getting a breather down here.

anyway this week is hectic. next week is even worse. busy days ahead. after that school reopens. wow time flies.

so thurs i tried fasting again. then had dinner at kampong glam before some shisha. virgin experience and it was great. maybe that will be a good place for me to lepak around with Rod and co in the coming future. haha.

then today was SC outing. was stationed at Bishan. my station was funny, with all the hilarious jokes coming out of the participants. its really amazing that you can feel colour by touching it. and i guess the little frogs did somehow, bring in more excitement. i can also see that the groups are bonding well.

then had dinner with the usual company that i can memorise what christinae alway orders. haha. oh well had quite a discussion, from our events to how we feel about what should be done and how we can improve on the current situation. haha, politcally everything seems to be going well but somehow deep down inside i feel that i need to fight for the rights for events. tough battle going soon...

"always up or down, never down and out."

riding the wave.

as i stand looking afar, i see strong waves coming towards me.

the tough times are coming. i can foresee it.

i will withstand and overcome this. i must bite through this.


"cause you don't stand out, and you don't fit it. weird."

human or bear?

sometimes i really hate myself for my weakest spot: sleep.

the previous entry explained it all, but i'm starting to find hate it even more.
it's like i can sleep as if im hibernating like a bear; nothing can wake me up. grrrr!

sorry to my MSA people. sorry to pangseh you all yet again.

how i wish i could change it all.


"when you live in a cookie cutter world being different is a sin."

body under maintainence.

i think my body just broke down this morning. haha, but looking on the bright side, i finally had the rest that i needed. like i slept till 1pm in the afternoon is quite remarkable for now under my busy schedule. well, i chose to be busy, hah! my only sleeping time at home is just that few 3 to 4 hours plus another half an hour of sleep on the bus.

well there were signs that my body is breaking down yesterday.
1) one more stop to alight and after hanging up the call with simseng, i just literally K.O. on the bus all the way to marina square. and i only woke up after constant bugging by the bus uncle, with like 9 missed call by simseng.

2) on the bus back home last night, i can dropped my big gulp twice due to me, K.O. again! of course, i finished the drink if not there'll be a mess on the bus.

3) this morning i can wake up by a call from yiye, at 9am which mean i am late for work for one full hour, and get back to sleep like nothing happened. cause during that time only sleeping was in my mind. haha, and i can sms people and sleep for an hour before replying them and guess what, get back to sleep again.

4) my eyes get dry and sore easily, my lips can dry and pimples start to appear.

seems like i really need this break. haha, ample rest and sleep is all i need. mon is back to work, and "punk'd"-ing people again! =D

when the east meets west.

always up and down, never down and out. life should be this way. haha oh well these few morning was real down on luck for me. i don't know why, i can like wake up ard 6am everyday last week and this week i can barely crawl out of bed even though it's already 7am. and in these cases either i waste money on cab fares or i reached the office late. like, wtf?

okay so tues was lantern festival. the few of us went over to east coast to play lantern and sparkler. lol, i don't really have the impression of me celebrating this festival when i was young other than once with my primary school classmates who stayed near me. hah! okay so we played ard, more or less with fire. kids out there shouldn't copy what we do. and we substituted mooncake with donuts! haha rather fresh idea eh?

then ytd was weisheng bdae. i think me and xiyao can create havoc and disturb the peace in the office. we are alway coming out with mischievous ideas, "punk'd"-ing people around and cracking the lamest and funniest joke from our work. okay back to the celebration, no cake but lotsa pranks. plus two free underwear hand-drawn by me. 壮如一条龙! lol! wait till i get the pics from my colleague.

after tt at night went out for a drink with some of the guys. well it was initially suppose to be a supper, but things turn out otherwise. ben's car is so cool, seriously stud sia. speeding down upper bukit timah road with music blasting through the speaker. ai zai man! then joke around.

ok i'm trying to summarise and make things short cause i'm tired. haha goodnight world!

something sweet but not diabetic.

life has been rather hectic lately but still, good company around alway make life feels great. although sometimes complicated stuffs that get on your nerves and cause you to be frustrated, it's comforting to know that there are alway people around who can help make the situation better. hah! thanks folks!

well, went to rod's house for sleepover last night after work. well, initially was supposed to play monopoly, but i was late. then the mac delivery came and i exit the lift, so we ate. after that, i don't know how and why, we switched our activities to watching movies. 不能所的秘密 and crash. both are good movies, the first one being really sweet and touching and the latter, intellectual and touching too. i like intellectual movies! =) oh well, "Secrets" was really seriously touching, with the girl being extremely sweet. if only i had a girlfriend like her, so sweet it melts you totally.

then today, went to ikea to get my carpet, and a lot of other stupid actions also. haha! yay carpet and i'm now left with the new cabinet and my mum to clear all the junks that do not belongs to me. woots!

"能遇见你已经是不可思议了。"

seriously sweet. omg...

purification.

suddenly i feel so pure. okay no big deal as compared to other muslim. haha yay fasting day was a success! well not quite cause i started late, like 7am in the morning when the sun already shining bright. can't help, its my habit to drink a cup of water after bathing and i only realised that after drinking the water. zz.

anyway i am proud of myself for resisting all the temptation at Ajisen, the office and any other place where people are drinking water. it doesnt matter if there's no food; it matters when there's no water. imagine i usually drink like 8 bottles of water per day and i dint even had a single drip of it from 7am to 7pm. amazing! and thanks for sua tau kia to give me the greatest tempation: putting one whole salmon sashimi with wasabe into the mouth. haha, but i still stay strong anw! =)

actually fasting isn't that hard. i don't really feel hungry, but seriously is tired. like lowwww sugar level = no energy. everyone say i looked pale, i think it's cause i'm too tired. haha, anw maybe another round of cleansing and purification next week. haha!

"take fasting not as a sacrifice to god, but a chance to feel what it is like to be hungry, to understand the hunger of what others, especially the children in Africa are going through. take is as a chance to cleanse your body immune system. try it. i know you can!"
- one random Malay customer from my part-time job.

quite meaningful. i summarized it, if not i will have to type out a 30mins conversation. haha, dont worry i'm not converting. i can't you see, if not i will get curse from my maternal family ancestors. =x (fyi my maternal side sells pork) and i think i'm loving kambing soup more and more!

something to look forward to..

"as i turn to the left, as i turn to the right, as i turn right back, a new friend found."


okay that was random. i also don't quite know how and why it keep recurring in my mind. anyway, back to the topic.

TB02 here we come!

yeap. phenomenon made. impossible is nothing. lol, 11 of us squeezed ourselves into the same class. to think how paranoid and afraid we were, when ahgirl told us she cannot enter. but still, yea most importantly is that finally something to look forward to in school. the company, the jokes, the laughters, the care and the love for one another. haha, alright let's not get to mushy about this.

thurs fasting. woots!

affairs.

it's a sunday and i believe many people out there are enjoying their weekend break. haha, and i am going to work later. omg workaholic? you haven't seen the worse in Singapore.

after this 3 weeks going on attachment, and the early morning rush to Novena, i observed something unique about us Singaporeans. this is a truly only "Singaporean trait".

no, it's not the way we gathered around the entrance point, leaving no real space for alighting passengers, then squeezing in the last person available into the sardine-packed mrt train. you should have seen videos about the railway of India and China. they even have people just holding onto the handle, and the rest of the body sticking out. haha.

neither it's the way you see how we can be the Oscar winner for slping, ignorant scene on public transport. no don't thing too in depth about it. what i meant is passengers who are sitting acting to fall asleep when they see someone who is more in need of a seat, or passenger fighting to rush to a vacant seat against the needy. these people disgust me. my friends should know i will offer my seats(don't laugh, i'm serious) to those in need. oh well..

and no, it's not how we people can queue for free stuffs and wait for so long, yet complain when they have to wait the slightest bit of a second. it's like you see a loooong queue at JE mrt station, outside the popular there. in the end i found out that they are queuing for Today newspaper. and i mean, you can choose to buy alternatives like ST, which is better. it's just a small portion of your pay. we just love to "gian peng gian sai" i guess.

but all the above mentioned are not the real "Singaporean trait". what is the real unique thing about us, is we can have all the behaviours(including all those which i'm too lazy to type) in one body, and we tend to perform it extremely well. haha. despite the diverse background and homeland we came from, we manage to find the common identity of Singaporean. haha, nowhere in the world can you see people like us having this trait. oh and did i mention, true Singaporeans are able to speak a lot of different language. like me, English, Mandarin, Malay, Indian, Teochew, Canto, Hokkien and others japalang languages all rojak together. hah! not to mention Singlish.

okay that was a real random post. it's rather long so take your time to read it again while i may not be able to blog for this coming week. cause mon there's MC meeting, tues and wed i'll be working since seng also working, thurs i'm going on a one day puasa(hopefully i can tahan) and break fast with shidah&co. all these after my regular hour of attachment works. haha. busy man? i duno. till then lah hor....

what do you fear?

alright, for the benefits of my friends who are working office attachment and nothing much better to do, i will try to update my blog regularly to entertain you all. hah, like my blog itself is very entertaining -.-"

attachments so far still okay. good working environment, bunch of jokers around. there are bound to be some funny and hilarious incoming calls and insane conversation coming out from.. practically nothing? haha and those waiting time for calls to come in, while all the others are in a conversation, i will keep my restless and sleepy self to drawing. yeah i like drawing, i don't know why, maybe cause i'm a leftie. haha.

okay. so i have been trying to draw my version of Jack the Ripper. don't know why i have a sudden fetish in it, maybe for my love in skulls and body arts. but as i drew i began to wonder: "what's life like from death?" you know when you normally watch tv shows on how the spirits of our body goes to heaven/hell after we die? does that really happen? god knows. but sometime i really fear death, despite me keep reminding myself that we should go all out to enjoy life since we only live once. sometimes doing harm to my body knowingly but still i do it. what can i say? i'm beginning to get real worried, after the leg injury. haha. oh well..

moral of the story is: cherish your life. live it!

what crap? anyway, i think my leg is more or less recovered. don't feel any tinge of pain anymore. hopefully it did recovered. =)

oh ya i almost forgot. goodluck for results day tmr! =D

hard to hide

knowledge has always been what everyone is yearning for. since young, curiosity has always been striking onto us, making ask questions about this and that. yes it's true that the more you know, the more knowledgeable you may seems, the better you are. but sometimes, somethings are not to be known to us. it's like a completely opposite experience, where the cold hard facts then to push us back, causing us to feel afraid to move forward. sometime i wish i can be ignorant of certain matters but i just cant. oh well...

my leg is doing okay. been limping for the past few days, but today i can walk normally. though i dont dare to push my luck and worsen the situation, i think i shall reserve to try running a few days later. thanks for all you people concerns anyway.

and attachment has been.. relatively fun i guess. maybe i like the nature of the job and the company i receive all around. haha, lots of laughter and stupid jokes made during work, and my repetitive, "mingjun. m-i-n-g-j-u-n. mingjun" to the receiver at the other end. =)

alright shall take a break from here. need to plan my time and budget already!

hurt

sometimes the only medicine is your circle of trust. by letting things out, you feel that you feel much more happier than have everything kept inside yourself. there's a limited volume to what we can intake.

anyway, i dont know what happened to my leg. since i woke up on sat it has been hurting me. i dint hurt myself somewhere or what, just hopefully everything will be alright.
would like to thanks the crew of people who especially took good care of me and asked about me, and not complain a single bit even though we have to go all the way to amk to have my leg fixed by the sinseh and all the cab fare due to my immobility. seriously, i cant imagine if our lives didnt step across each other. it's been wonderful with you people. brother (and sisters) ji gu wei!

and dont worry people, hopefully my leg will recover soon enough for me to kick some balls. haha. time for me to turn in soon, there's still work to be done tmr! and sorry to MSA for not able to attend today's recce, hope everything's doing well! =)

statement.

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."
-Unholy Confession, Avenged Sevenfold

too much thoughts running up my head. i think i just need to let it out somewhere... but not really here. sometimes when we look back on what happened in our lives, our pasts, we tend to regret on things that we had done or not done enough of. that's normal.

but when we keep searching inside ourselves for all these feelings and thoughts, it's rather agonizing for us to realise how useless we can be. i realised how dumb i was to have done all these things and say all those words that hurt not only others but myself too. that may be the past but reality hurts. wishing for nothing to happen would be impossible, and no matter how hard we try to forget about the ugly past, there will still be a small, undeterred part lingering somewhere in the back of your brain.

rather surprising how easy it was for me to offer counseling to those in needs but how hard it is for me to convince myself. guess i will just have to drill the positive mindset deeper into my mind. hopefully things will get better. oh well.....

zzzzzzz

sooooo exhausted. seems like i am drained off my energy. and its only the second day of attachment. song bo?

met some with some of them just now. some have interesting job, others dull. haha. my job? is confidential. but those who are around me should roughly know what's my job scope about hur? plus the thick thick stuffs in my bag. =)

okay, updating for the sake of update only. haha. i want to do something interesting these few weeks! like cooking? haha, after watching Ratatouille Affair over the weekend, i have the sudden inspiration to learn to cook good food, which i predict will come in handy sooner or later. okay people go watch that movie, you will like it.

till when i hweeling to blog....

school's out!

yipee! exams over. alright a quick review. AAA suddenly seems to be my most confident module. IEF was a killer, a psychotic one in particular killing so many lives. EC, Marketing and OM seriously, i hope i can pass. was crapping through the paper anyway.. so school's out, but i still have attachment coming along, plus lots of upcoming plans and projects. but i am going to enjoy life first nevertheless!

and i recently found the introvert side of me, when i don't talk to anyone about my thoughts and feelings, just keeping everything to myself. a little scary though, looking like an emo kid, but somethings are just hard to explain and express verbally. it's kinda interesting how extrovert (yes my friends who know me) who always encourage people to share their problems and burdens yet i can seems to practice what i preach. ohwell! hopefully everyday will get better.

alright nth much to blog about for now, damn lazy.... till next time?



"why do all good things come to an end?"

yipee yaya yipee yipee ya

alright first at foremost, HAPPY (belated) NATIONAL DAY! woohoo! i am a patriotic person, and i am proud to be a Singaporean, though at times i hope that we can be more open-minded. hah! guess i was the only guy who sang Majulah Singapura out loud outside the Esplanade during National Day when the people inside the water platform are singing it! see! actions speak louder than words.

nothing much special happened recently, other than Mugger Pu springing back into action to mug. and when Pu mugging periods come, it's the peak season for me to have my medicine. so... yeah people out there, please be understanding abit. thank you.

oh and EPL just started last night. what did i say about watching out for Newcastle United? hehehe..

the saga continues (trilogy special!)

guess prayers do work eh?

was getting rather impatient and losing hope about retrieving my (or rather, her) hp back. so off i went to bath and preparing to go to sch. seriously this is one of the rare time i will hear the phone in the living room ringing while i was bathing. i was guessing maybe it is sherwin or karen asking where i am to meet me for the briefing. so when i finish bathing, i called them back. to my pleasant surprise, they told me that my(her) phone was found! yipee!

so the excited me rush outta home after eating the sushi which i found in my fridge. hah! okay so i boarded a SMART cab SHB7374U and met a friendly uncle Tan who did not go by the meter charge, in a good way. haha, we toured around clementi in search for bukit timah cc, as according to his "scroll for direction" is in that area. but all we see are blocks of flats and, upgrading works? after going so many rounds, i told him to drop me off at clementi cc and wait for me to ask direction for the wiser people over there. when i got the address and showed him, he realised that his "scroll" was actually, sad to say outdated despite the many info it has.

so off we went to jalan jurong kechil, and reached bukit timah cc. by now the meter charge should be more than $15 i suppose, but he only charge me $4. how nice! commendation to him for his efforts, but just minus that profanities in conversation. haha!

okay so i called the person who picked up my hp. well he sound real mature, like 25++ of age. but when i met him, he was just a secondary school kid! perhaps if im kind enough i can give him up till JC student. anyway i cannot thank him enough for his kindness and righteousness in returning the hp back to me. 44 missed call, and some funny and holy sms-es received. wow.. but im grateful to him AND my friends who prayed hard and was worrying for my(her) hp..

the rest of the days were as usual, lecture and studying. and my attachment allowance is real... meagre. grrr..

anyway quote of the day: "save water. bath together"

okay. hahahaha tickle me please.

the adventure continues part II

alright where did i stop? oh climbing up the Benjamin Sheares bridge!


okay so as we walked up the stairs, we started to see the light shining from above, well more like from the lamp posts by the highway. when we see the ferris wheel, nothing can describe the joy within us. like, "yes, finally we have a heading to where we are going!". then as we walked we see more familiar sights, like the Millenia Walk and Suntec City, then Fullerton Hotel at the far end.
"wow!", i wondered, "This might be a hot spot on thurs for firework display!"

but now we faced a problem: the road seems never-ending. zz.. so we had no choice but to continue to walk, and when we finally end the journey along this bridge, we realised we had no way to cross the road across to Suntec City. geez, what luck! no choice, so we continued walking across the Nicholl Highway and reached... Bugis! wanted to find a place to rest our precious legs and get some refreshment. so we keep walking yet again...

until we saw one 24hour sign. like hallucination in a desert, without thinking we just walk towards that direction, and as we get nearer we seems to realise the place is Raffles Medical Hospital. oh well who cares? we just want to get refreshments. so we rested well there, too well i must say that suddenly all of us want to go home.

so the journey for that day ends, starting all the way from Geylang to Kallang to Benjamin Sheares Bridge to across Nicholl Highway to Bugis then back home by cab. see how much distance we trekked around the city?

the following day, i had the fright, and disappointment in my life. as we were talking cock on the bus to B.Batok, i realised that something was missing in my pocket and bag. i began to search frantically for it, but to no avail. afraid that i might dropped in at Holland V, i immediately rushed on a cab back there with Karen and Weixia, with their lives almost lost while crossing the road. well, since Ah Boy and The Wild One being at their hometown, i asked them to check with the interchange staffs if i dropped it on the bus, only to know that the bus was sent for cleaning. what luck!

meanwhile at Holland V, alright i want to complain about the cab driver for taking one big round. karma shall fall on him, driving for one week without any passenger! back to topic, the 3 of us combed the area for many times, starting from Essential Brew to the bus stop, back and forth, to no avail. this is the first time i ever feel a pinch of pain after losing my handphone. *sigh*

oh great god. please bring my baby back to me! i shall pray hard.. all of you should to......

takethewalkAROUNDthecity! the adventure part 1.

sometimes, somehow, i began to wonder how skeptical the world might be. im beginning to have this real negative thought that this particular system is bad and corrupt. now i know why mjie hate it so much. hah, like i finally realise. oh well,

anyway that aside, sat went to Suntec to watch WCG. okay maybe not watch, since extreme gaming is not really my cup of tea, but to take attendance. haha, after went to watch the Simpsons! it was hilarious, and as expected some of the parts were quite lame but still i enjoy it. childhood cartoon you know? but i never seems to understand the content when i was a kid, till now. haha! oh and not to malu someone but during the exploding part, someone beside me actually jumped, somehow seemingly shocked. heheh..

okay after that went to get slippers. like finally! quite like the design, but i dont expect it to last long for me to walk confidently on wet surfaces. haha! alright i like that slipper. then popped over to HD as usual. ooh im starting to love the tiramisu flavour!

then we act hero. alright lengthy post so beware.

didn't know where to go. so we walked towards a random direction until we reached a bus stop and,
"Hey, got 51! Can go Geylang eat 豆浆油条!"
"You sure this is the right direction?"
then the bus came, so off we went.

alighted somewhere near Kallang MRT station. okay, chaotic traffic, with the fruit sellers all looking at karen and weixia. hum sup lou ah! then we went to locate the famous shop and happily ate our.. dinper? then as alway, the curious ahboy wanted to go see how does vice activity actually operate, and as usual the steady me, karen and weixia agreed to go, with me leading the way cause i have been there before. IN THE DAY.. i still stand firmly on no casual and pre-marital sex for me!

so i brought them through Lorong 8 and Lorong 12, and let them see how the er-hem social escorts do their business, and tell them about some of my personal experience interacting with these escorts. (decent direct sales business, i still stand firmly on my point!) oh well maybe next time we can go further into Lorong 21, but i had enough for that night. so we went Indoor Stadium to use the toilet -.-" at least walking around the National Stadium do bring back some memories of me working there, watching soccer and such. well there was a mini motorbike race at the carpark outside the stadium, just round and round on mini bikes. so cute!

okay fast forward. slack at the bridge outside Indoor Stadium, talkcock singsong and lepak around. then decide to go Mustafa Center! so as it was late, like past midnight, we could only walked back. so we walked along Geylang river, and so sorta lost. wanted to ask for direction from a driver, but they told me not to cause they were afraid that the driver is drunk, or the possibility that we may get kidnap. what a joke. and we were like directly under Benjamin Sheares bridge. so i suggested,
"Why don't we go up the bridge? More chances leh!"

to be continued...

cheers!

woohoo! another cause of celebration. IS is finally over for this semester! the day i had been looking for this whole term is finally here! hahaha, alright sidetrack a little actually i do still need to go down Suntec this sat to watch WCG for IS, but still the idea of the last lesson today is simply.. mind exploding!

okay so long haven update, also don't know what to update. =/ ohya yesterday was the Ming Jie's Birthday Celebration planning committee annual event. erm abit crap but we enjoyed the funny moments. minds cafe was great as usual, bringing out the laughter and such in us, then the rest of the day was just eat and eat. before that when we had lunch with KPT i also eat eat eat. cause she ordered the food but no one eat, so as ahjunk i junk in all the food. hmm anything else.. oh! and a gay couple was spotted holding hands outside fullerton walking along the flyover towards esplanade. shall post the pic when i have it.

that's all for now. tmr i am going to push myself liao. haha..

hahahaha!

yes!~ projects are finally over. wooohooo~~

okay so much for the joy and jubilant. time to enjoy! bye!

palm

yay! im so happy to know that i will have a great future! well sorta, through palm reading. today during management committee break time we were just as usually, randomly talking crap, then suddenly palm reading came to our topic. only siu cing know how to read, so i had my palm for her to read. woohoo~ i will have a super blissful marriage, longevity and wealth. hopefully this will be true eh =)

nothing much to post about actually. haha, these few days the cycle is all the same. school, projs, dinner, home. everything revolves around these four things. just that dinner for each day is at different random venue.

so blank, upload some super random pictures..

they say im so xin fu. but i think they "kissed" my fu qi away.

erm.. superjun touching down?

don't try to play punk with us!

shhh.. i'm vandalising the wall..

amitofo!

affairs of the heart

sometimes when one's heart is not in place and not in the right state of mind, he/she will not be able to find the answer for the problem, even though to other bystanders it may seems obvious. you see in life there are full of choices to make, but for every choice that we make, we must be positive to it and never look back in regret. i helped my friends before into making the decision i feel right for them, and today i'm glad i just helped another one. case closed for counsellor pu for now. heh.

okay back to life. i have a feeling the mahjong season is coming back again. you can see things associated to mahjong happening around me, be in software or the real game. either way, the season for playing is back. and i recently, well finally set up my drums. yea! so going to buy the carpet soon with some of the b11s people. cant wait for it!

till then...

bug

it's 430am early in the morning. i guess at such wee hour most of us are asleep but i'm having insomnia here. and i have to report at 830am sharp in the morning to be a karang-guni man, have meeting in the afternoon and attend to something at night. great, how am i going to survive through all these i wonder?

i don't know why, suddenly it seems that a lot of things are bugging me now. be it the problems that i'm facing now, or the dreams i want to achieve. my just cant make my mind go blank and go to sleep. kinda ironic that i can feel so sleepy in the morning and don't feel like going out of bed and stay so awake in the night. maybe i'm turning back to nocturnal. oh well...

maybe i should just try to work my energy off and feel that damn tired to get a good night rest. hah! maybe tmr night eh! alright and fyi, this is not suppose to be an emo post. i am just so randomly bored. till then fellas...

letting go.

you know sometime, when i keep quiet, doesn't mean i am cool with things. friends who know me will understand that, when they see my stern face and keeping myself quiet, something is not right. when i joke, i joke. but when i do not joke, try not to step over the line. because once i start an argument, it's gonna be a riot. i have been there and done that, so don't try it out. let face this, i don't wish to have any unnecessary unhappiness in the atmosphere.

forgive and forget, bullshit. its easy to forgive but hard to forget. i am a human after all, i have feelings, i bear grudges. yes people do make mistakes, even i do. maybe i am thinking too much, or maybe it's just that im tired of everything. *sigh*

it's been an emotional roller-coaster this past weeks, and it's taking a toll on me. i'm tired, i need a break from this. thank goodness there are companions around who can cheer me up. thanks eh! alright enough of rantings, back to AAA. pray hard for tmr!

back

first and foremost, sorry for this late update. was rather busy with projects, and finally IEF project is off my shoulder! cause for short celebration, OM also done. left with 2 more project and AAA retest. friday come quick! i want to offload AAA soon...

okay let me try to recap.

watched transformer last week. great movie i must say, maybe due to my childhood favourite cartoon. optimus prime! too bad singapore cant contain a 18 wheeler. haha, but still i want to own a van next time. oh by the way my dad gave a pass for me to learn license! woots! going to take basic theory right after attachment. then i will be praying to pass and tio toto then buy a van. van van van..
after that was slacking around and talking cock. omg just one year and so much difference. ohwell, im sure hoping to catch any movie adapted from cartoons like "biker mice from mars" , "captain planet" and "double dragon". serious these are the cartoons that i watched when i was young, believe or not.

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blood donation. gah rather pissed, couldnt donate cause of health reason. there goes my chance to know my blood group. anyway i went to the polyclinic on mon to test it. results will be out in another week. and the doctor advise me to go for a check-up. well, i have always been wanting to go for a full body checkup, but i don't know the price. maybe if its within my budget i will go for it eh? hmmm..

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then mugging session. been mugging quite a lot on AAA. thanks to karen, weixia and weekok for staying through the night to study with me. yay! now i sorta understand the logic behind stuffs liao. but still i hate AAA. oh well..

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ahh last but not least presenting to you connie talbot:

so super touching lah! so super duper nice! kids' ignorance is really a bliss.


okay till next time liao. zhao first! =)

our last goodbye to the Great Old Dame

a new chapter of history unfolded tonight. after its many years of operation, our Singapore National Stadium is finally, coming to an end to make way for a new and better Sports Hub. I may not had been there during its prime time, where the likes of Fandi, Sundra, Malek Awak, Lim Tong Hai, Steven Tan and so on.. But i am there for the last few glorious moments.

I was there when our Lions won a sweet revenge against our rival Malaysia this year.
I was there when our Lions won the first leg draw against Thailand in the final this year.
I was there when ManU came and thrashed us upside down.
I was there during the last match for this stadium, which happened tonight. (f.y.i. Singapore lost 0-3 to Australia)
I was also there when they screened the movie "The Incredibles" in conjunction with Family week.

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I can still remember my first visit to the stadium. That was during p5 where we had to come watch the rehearsal of the NDP parade then for free. On the bus I was already in awe of the amazingly big compound (or maybe due to me being smaller then..), and when the performing soldier just whiz past me as he did the flying fox from the top level.

Well that was quite a very long past. Now I had experience a lot about how sports event are held, exploreed new places in the stadium and many others. The most important thing, I felt must be the atmosphere inside the stadium. With the rhythms of the drums, to the loud and restless cheering which unite all Singaporeans from all walk of life to come together and support our very own Lions. You're the 12th man on the pitch.

Thank you for giving this chance to learn my dear stadium. We shall see a better and much more renew faces in you in a few years time.

Goodbye National Stadium. =)

the parliament?

passed my IEF. but not a very promising result either. over-confident i guess. must work harder, especially for my AAA. haha...

just had SU election meeting earlier in the evening. i am quite satisfied with the top few posts, but come to the other posts, everything was in quite a turn off. all the candidates, are rather unwilling to fill up the position, no real drive to work on it. one even keep complaining this and that, what more can i say? i think this is why SU are not really that popular in the poly. the nonchalant attitude given by some of the Excos, or even the Union representatives really turns my day off.. and most importantly, i feel that the agenda on the committee's mind is not really right. as SU, we should help fight for students' welfare and right, just like what trade unions do to labours. but almost every introduction speech made by them were like more towards cleaning up the mess made by SU and make a positive impression on students. right don't use talk the talk; walk the walk! hopefully this year SU will be better. =/

after the meeting was talking to shihui, the president of ICT society, (weekok and co, don't think too much on the name.. lol!) while waiting for issac. were discussing about the possibility of holding an inter-school event, or maybe a collaboration event to help students interact. haha, the idea was there, but we need more detailed points for it to work out. maybe soon, haha..

then i went to meet ice cream boy, tua pau, ahboy and sexy for dinner. went botak there, this time round i have cajun chicken. wooo big delicious serving, i like! =D cheese always make my appetite, well, other than overdoes of cheesecake. haha..

alright, i go enjoy by pop/jazz music while chiong projects liao. till next time..

aspiration

woots sch reopen was met with a disaster. i flunked my AAA like big time. nothing to gloat about for me seriously, if i want to keep up the pace and well, secure my place in MC. hopefully it's not too late to learn most of the stuffs in term1. hah! well, maybe i will need some help, who knows?

anyway, not really going to blog much about results. went for the OCBC career talk today. it was basically, how to prepare ourselves for job interview and, just promoting the careers in OCBC. which lead me to think about this: what do we aspire to be?

when i was young, i was fascinated by policemen and superheroes. i aspire to be them. then sports came into my life and i wanted to be a soccer player. that changed when i started playing basketball. but then again, due to some unexplainable circumstances i gave up on that dream. yea, keep it inside yourself if you know that reason. hah!

then began to learn about automobile. and expose myself to the society, the colourful (tattoos, honour blah blah blah..) and the bad side of it. under the influences of films like 古惑仔, i wanted to be a gangster once, but laugh at how foolish i used to be. haha.. bleak future. and see how cool it was to race down the road, with anime like Initial D coming in, and more friends riding on their sport bikes. then the risk of losing a life, which i treasure, turned me off. maybe just a driver, but no racer.

then came arts and music. always in much admiration and respect to those musicians who can move people, influencing them lots. be in soul, rock, jazz, pop, metal.. as long as people look up to you, you're great. then i wanted to be a rock star, either a drummer (gotta brush up on that), or a rock star vocalist (don't laugh people. i know i can't sing well but i can scream =D ), head banging, jumping around on stage, stage jump, and moving people to my music. haha, look at the talent of Singapore's rock? underground may work though..

now coming into poly, choosing business as a core module. where do my interest lies? till now i'm not that sure myself either. let's look at the more practical side of Singaporeans' careers. i enjoy gourmet foods, i can eat but cant really cook. but i used to aspire to be one. i enjoy graphic designs, always in awe of the cool, lively and vibrant work of art by designers. i also enjoy building and fixing stuffs, always attempting to D.I.Y. stuffs around me.

but everything seems to revolve around the environment that surrounds me. so what lies ahead of me, though i know it's in my hand, but i dont know where to go seriously. shall wait and see as time passes by.. so....

what do you possess?

dont worry people, just blogging some thoughts on my mind. till then, goodluck for results and.. same to me too. haha.. cheers! =D

leadership.

for the past two days i was at the students' leader seminar held by the school. it was enriching for me of course, since i never really had any course or talk about leadership, and quite a eye-opener. in general i must say that i learn a lot of stuffs from the seminar. yea, pass it on. hah!

made some new friends in the seminar itself. expose myself to more politics stuffs, which sometimes im real disgusted by it. played bonding games which gave me ideas for MSA camp. yay!

oh, talking about leader. i suppose all of you will know that a leader is someone whom the followers elect, and they elect through the charisma, personality and abilities of the "leader". there's this one guy, who wants to run for presidency in students' union. but the way he present himself in day 1 (well day2 he was absent, what can i say?), the over-confidence in him, the means he got into the exco.. i'm totally disgusted about it. let just say i will not vote for him, and if ever he get voted, i will start a riot (as in, argument =D ). guess that's what happen after knowing so many revolutions from my history syllabus. im a freedom fighter!

alright i don't really know what else more to blog for now. ah! bon voyage to those going for their oversea field trips soon. and i guess i need to keep the mood to play for now, gotta rush projects liao.....

sober

sometime we wonder how far is far, how close is close? these are some limitations that we ourselves do not know, if we had done enough, or had we went overboard? its until when the effects set in do we realise what exactly are we doing?

sometimes we fear something in our heart, but our mind constantly tell us that we will be able to overcome it. mind over heart, or vice versa? we humans are such wonderful yet queer creatures that we cannot explain or accurately pin point the reason why. ambiguous cases do appear here and there, without reason, without warning.

i don't know why and when thoughts and reflections got into me. maybe i was having too much fun that i didn't really care that much. it was only when i was still sober, while on the verge to getting drunk that i began to think alot, after all that highness there'll be a low down, just like having a ying in every yang. i always believe life is like a sine graph, it goes up and down. and i suddenly feel that it is during life's "down" period that we start to self-reflect and change for the better, well hopefully...

what i reflected just now, is that i had ignored quite a few people's emotion and natural characteristic, which is hard for them to change. maybe the extrovert side of me got over myself too much that i alway try to engage people. like what henry told me, some people may not like it. it's natural for them, and they may dislike to do certain stuffs. i feel that i had been selfish enough for things to go my way while sacrificing others' feelings. it's like forcing my way through a wall against other's natural characteristic. yes my bad =(

anyway i hope that these people will not hold it against me. (no i'm not pin-pointing to any particular person pls! it just in a general context..) sometimes i get too firm in my decision and beliefs that it became natural for me to hit the wall. oh well, life is such a wonder!

okay so i think i need to rush projects now. wait, its a must! hah! gonna chao pia projects liao, esp for IEF, and society projs too! ohmy! oh and we spring cleaned the society room. it look so bright and vibrant with the new coat of paint on. next up is to arrange everything. woots! something to look forward to in the next one year in bAs. =)

and to my dear feli, clemmy and gifford. don't be disheartened by the recruitment eh? like what caleb wrote in the Gy blog, we should cherish the moments and friendships we had. remember Yamatai KILL! KILL! KILL! maybe next year some of the freshies will be able to cont the legacy! =)

alright i better turn in now, meeting tmr.............

changes.

have you ever wonder how amazingly the world is crafted, how beautiful creatures are formed and changed to fight for survival in this competitive environment, and how they adapt to these changes. a person's behaviour is largely based on the environment they are in. this is why, you can see a person change when he or she moves into a new phase of their life. it's like, a social norm that none of us can avoid, be it positive or negative.

that's why the phrase, "people change" and the most common question, "why has he/she changed so much?". this is self-explainable i suppose?

but we human beings are more than special. we possess something called "feeling" and as we changes we tend to have a little bit of nostalgia somewhere in their heart, at some places or maybe with someone else. inevitable i guess, but that's how we human works.

i must say, over the years, i had been missing a lot of people. from those botak boys from 4h and gang, to my secondary school friends on and off the court to tb11 and some of close friendships outside school. suddenly i feel like i want tb11 to be together as a class again, but for some reason drop the idea again. how contradicting. see how random i can get?

sometime things cannot be brought back once its over. same for tb11. though our friendship are still there, the fun memories we had, but still we are not really going to go out as a class that much, or experience the feeling again. i came to realise that i missed out on a lot of good stuffs the past years. hope that i can cherish it from now on. =/

okay maybe i'm just too tired so i anyhow blabber. oh well random me is striking back again.

big hole

woots. kena dua-ed big time in 2 days. haha.

sun was supposed to go out with yao and zx. in the end yao cannot make it. then my dad wanted to fix the curtain railing, in the end he said the one that we bought was not suitable. so he did not fix it. it was like, "omg after the curtain i can go buy the carpet and fix my drums", and i was pretty excited in my heart. but the curtain didn't came, so my dream didn't came too. it's like an after effect, then my whole mood that day was pretty much sucky. haha.

tues was the ulitmate. power98fm trip was a disaster. supposed to meet at CMPB guard house at 220pm? then i woke up round 130. okay so afraid of being late, i cabbed down. then, i waited. the teachers came and we waited.... for an hour? then the teacher just gave up hope and cancelled the trip. it's like, wtf? im the only student present there and waited for almost an hour and now you're calling it off? zzz..

alright at least after that i went to chill. had my virgin botak jones at depot road, their new outlet. tried the fish and chip. the taste was quite unique from others i had before, with a pinch of garlic taste i guess. but the serving was very generous, especially the chips. went town with mjie and sherwin to watch Pirates of the Caribbean. it was pretty much nice, and captain jack sparrow being that hilarious as usual. haha, before that went to walk around, well.. just walked and window shopped.=/ haha i want to go shopping! pls let me strike lottery =x

mon was also quite enjoyable. had MSA meeting at pasir ris. weiting almost enter the female toilet unknowingly, Mel learned how to cycle, and ChristinaE driving was, adventurous i must say. haha. "omg where are we now?" quite fun actually to have your friend driving you around. then had the feeling-lagi-shiok bak chor mee at longhouse. seriously the best i had tried in my life. the taste is so unique, plus the soup... ooooo i want to have it. come to think of that, i also want to try the depot road claypot laksa at queensway there. rah! i want a van!!!

okay first i need to have my basic theory then car license. haha. oh and lots of money to buy, or maybe lots of luck to win lucky draw with a vehicle as the grand prize. haha..