warmer than the sun, colder than the galaxy.

When confessions come to a teary end, what would you be affected? Feel sad and keep quiet? Or would you rather try your best to make the situation change for a better? Personally I will go forward with the latter. It's unlike me to get all emo and sunken down, and I will rather be a jovial person with the high octane to motivate others (lest I irritate them).

So another one has left, I shan't comment much on this. Usually I wouldn't blog such confidential thing in here but I just don't know why I have the urge and feeling to do so now. One by one, they left this family citing personal reasons, such as unable to cope with the schedule or no real sense of belonging. When one leave, we may be able to point fingers and push away responsibilities. But as one by one starts to drift away, I guess it pretty much a matter of both parties.

Often during such undesired situation there will bound to be self-reflection upon our part. Had we not done enough to make them feel at home? Had we not try our best to help each others in time of need? Just how much is the best, and where is the line that draws staying and leaving apart? Such answers I suppose, can and will never be clear enough for explanations.

Then again, everyone will feel that they are at most of the time, correct in one way or another. I am no exception. Looking back, don't I face these problems before? The opportunity cost of being responsible as a part of the family, or a part of my family. Is it better to stay on, or to go along? The decision was rather clear that I had to finish this business. Persevere on and walk the whole journey. I believe that the fruit of labour will be much more sweeter than what I had expected. The road may be tough but I am a tanker, I will not fall upon any setbacks.

Maybe different people have different personal problems that are unable to be cite. I respect their decision, I cannot change the outcome anyway. Maybe what we see are only the surface, but deep down the complicated matters may had made it hard for everyone. Nevertheless, I seriously hope that the remaining us that are left standing will hold on together. I had never ever been so committed to the extent of having felt the disappointment and sadness when someone call it quits.

Come on, we are a part, not apart. When you need someone to talk to, just feel free to find any of us. Keeping matters to yourself for a long period of time is unhealthy, and maybe two minds can create a better solution. We know that someone within us will always be there to support one another. We are one big family after all.

*chuckles*
I can't help but to slap myself when saying that "we are one big family". I just don't know why, though we seems pretty much comfortable with each other's company, but deep down inside I feel that there are strings that are being pulled, to the benefits or negative effects. I seriously feel that being true to each other will help create a better and more comfortable atmosphere to each other.

*take a deep breathe*
Oh well! I believe the route to a happier live is to be forgiving. Though I will never forget, and I believe no human just erase bad memories off the back of their mind just like how we delete files with just a click of the mouse, I seriously do look forward for a better and brighter future by ignoring these bad days. Let us move forward from this point and create a more comfortable and loving family. We shall and we must, for all the responsibilities that we have to carry out, for all the pride we must preserve, and all the trust that are placed upon us. =)