we, are one.

"Heal the world, make it a better place;
For you and for me and the entire human race;
There are, people dying, if you cared enough for the living;
Make a better place for you and for me." Michael Jackson, Heal The World


you know, sometimes i just wonder how unfair life is. we often complain about the things that we lack, the things that can be improved, the things that we want but cannot get and so on, we do not think of how fortunate we are. we always say about how we feel sorry for those unfortunate or poor people, but we do not practice what we preached in helping them to have a better live. i am sure for myself, that maybe after this entry, i will start to complain about stuffs and soon, forget about how fortunate i am myself again.

that night while i was eating dinner late at night, i watched the Amercican Idol, Idol Gives Back. they were trying to raise funds for those third world countries, hoping to help them and make a big difference in their lives. i was exceptionally touched by the story of a boy, who's only 12years old and had to play the part of father to his younger siblings as they lost their parents. yes, i think he's the world's most hardworking father, having to spent his time studying, taking care of the family and providing enough necessities for his siblings. think about it, how many of us, when we are just twelve years old, are independent enough to do all these? just a young boy, such a demanding job.

and he's not the only one. there are thousands, or worse, millions other children and people suffering in these third-world countries. they are facing a fear which they cannot hide from. they fear that a catastrophe might happen anytime. they fear for sufficient food and clothings; they fear of not having a shelter over their head; they fear for deadly disease which may struck them anytime due to the poor hygiene conditions; they fear death.

another story which also touched me, is when a man had faced 280plus funeral in his life. imagine witnessing deaths after deaths, with most of it happening to the young ones who suffered from diseases like malaria but do not have the basic medical service. it's horrifying to imagine that. it's simply... unbearable.

that's why people around are trying to help, especially the rich and famous. some, like Oprah Winfrey, one of the most influential woman of all time, built a girl's school in South Africa in bid to help woman there to have a chance to gain education with proper facilities. she had also helped in organizing donation drives to help these unfortunate people. Bono from Irish rock band U2 had also done a lot. his Live8! concert and fight Aids programs have benefited many people. and many others are too, doing their part to help the third world countries, helping to shape a better life for these people who are suffering the pain and living under the fear.

hopefully as years go by, we can help improve the quality and conditions in these countries and help benefit the people who has been suffering for so long. but for now, i guess i will have to be satisfied and grateful with what i have, and hopefully i am able to play a part into helping the poor and needy. =D

gain some; lose some

"Oh chariot I'm singing out loud; To guide me give me your.. strength" Gavin Degraw, Chariot.

i have this very bad habit of mine that i tried to change but still futile. my parents have been telling me that if i don't kick this habit of mine, i am bound to suffer in NS and in future. well, its my heavy sleeping habit. i had even adapt to be able to sleep soundly on anywhere as long as it's not stinky, not very dirty and that i can sit or lie on.

you see, because of my this habit, i have been late for lesson. and being late for lesson means i need to rush to school fast, and the only mode of transport that is fast enough will be the cab. so i have been taking cab to school quite often, making my work and plans of saving up go into waste.

worse still was ytd IS. i overslpt and even took bus there and was like 3hrs plus late. lesson was supposed to start at 8am and ends at 12pm but i reached ard 11plus am. went there for less than 15mins and the class was dismissed. pro? i don't really feel good about this seriously. it's not everyday sunday that you can have such a good, or rather, too lenient tutor. oh wells..

okay, guess i shall end here. don't really know what to blog; or that i have too much to blog just that i don't know how to express it or start the topic. what the hell am i saying? =/ irony. okay, tmr's MC interview. wish me luck everyone, then mugging session liao. kay goodbye world!

reflect

aH`JuN- xx `latest craze and "in" thing: chao mugger says:
i duno how to start a blog entry
● - H u i.J u n*　　you're not alone anymore...// ♥ Akanishi Jin. says:
lol
● - H u i.J u n*　　you're not alone anymore...// ♥ Akanishi Jin. says:
start with photos!
● - H u i.J u n*　　you're not alone anymore...// ♥ Akanishi Jin. says:
lol
● - H u i.J u n*　　you're not alone anymore...// ♥ Akanishi Jin. says:
you can start like this..
● - H u i.J u n*　　you're not alone anymore...// ♥ Akanishi Jin. says:
let me teach u
● - H u i.J u n*　　you're not alone anymore...// ♥ Akanishi Jin. says:
well, knowing huijun is the happiest thing in my life.
● - H u i.J u n*　　you're not alone anymore...// ♥ Akanishi Jin. says:
such a nice girl.. lol
aH`JuN- xx `latest craze and "in" thing: chao mugger says:
lol
aH`JuN- xx `latest craze and "in" thing: chao mugger says:
i blog u dun shy leh
● - H u i.J u n*　　you're not alone anymore...// ♥ Akanishi Jin. says:
lol
● - H u i.J u n*　　you're not alone anymore...// ♥ Akanishi Jin. says:
u think i will shy?



lol. so bhb right? ok lah i was running out of idea to start this entry. huijun! you must be lucky that i did not added any scandalous pictures here. hah! k lah you're such a nice sweet girl it's too bad we can't be tgt. LOL!

alright, well school's been quite okay this few days. just that some of the modules are quite dry and boring. maybe it'll get more interesting in weeks to come. oh no! like this semester we have quite a handful of projects to do! rawr!! busy mugging season liao..

anyway, today's IEF tutorial was kinda scary, traumatizing and reflective. the tutor, whom i still don't know her name cause i had been calling almost all tutors by the name, "t-cher" was one with quite a b**** fit. LOL! it's like she'll keep on asking general knowledge qns, suaning pple and such, making this lesson quite amusing yet scary and times.

but what i clearly remember in today's lesson was when she told us about students working as part-time, too busy to get proactive in projects, being a hindrance to the group and such. made me reflect so much about year1. when we had discussion fro project. well i know sometimes i was like a big block hindering our progress cause i was not really free for meetings and such, but at least i put in effort. at least i did play some part in the projects. hope that it was useful enough to be a help. well i also don't know when did i ever get so troubled over a certain comment, but what the tutor say was true. well...............

hope that my decision to lessen my working time will help shape me into a better project group member. i don't know, opportunity cost i guess. gain some lose some. i know i'm more of a "you give me a work, i will try to do the best for you" person. i know that i can really work hard like a dog if i want to. argh! this year i must get good results and that means i must put in extra more effort to do good my projects.

okay shall stop all these ranting of thoughts for now. at least i see some light to which direction i'm heading to. okay signing off, tomorrow IS lessons at 8am. wth! kay bye!

cherish

"Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost" - Seize The Day, Avenged Sevenfold

in life, all of us have 24hours a day, 365 days a year. but many times in life, we always find insufficient time in doing what we want, doing what we ought to do. we often live in a moment of dilemma, confused about where we are heading and in the end, regretted our actions had we made the wrong move.

does this sound familiar to anyone of you, or does it seems to only happen to me.

i'm starting to live in a world of fear. fear of failures. fear of regrets. seriously, i think that "regret" is such a strong word, it can cause a disastrous effect on your mood and feeling. it's like no one wants to regret on their actions and decision but it's inevitable to have it. only through lessons like these will we learn.

no i'm not emo-ing here for your information. i'm just tired...

okay anyway, i signed up for the MC thing in society. hopefully i can make it. i want to experience something fresh and exciting in the near future. and i have to thank my boss for his understanding and all these, hope that i won't disappoint him in any sense. and thanks for those who supported or helped made me believe firmly in my decision. haha a load off my shoulder for now..

oh, and tomorrow will be the start of tutorials. how dreadful it is this year. i can't really believe the class that i'm in. may this year pass quick, or hope that i can get accustomed to my new class. *sigh*

hah, anyway i think i shall post this out lah, even though this may sound abit mushy, but nevertheless; i think i will reeeaally miss the times with GY and all the GY-ians lah. it's like school started for one week but we're still hanging out with each other, crashing lectures here and there. thanks for all the joy through the time spent tgt, esp camwhoring and talking cock session. haha.. hope to see you peeps in school!

confused.

okay, i shall try my best to not type an emo entry. oh! and before all, happy birthday big boss lawsonn. 猪！你的鼻子有两个洞！ haha..

this week has been rather fulfilling, yet kinda awkward. it's like, i find joy in spending the time with GY people, i find joy in going to school and getting myself occupied in mixing around, getting to know and getting close to friends. then again, i feel kinda awkward and weird to like suddenly ps-ed my colleagues, when they are kind of facing labour shortage. *sigh*

but one thing for sure, i won't regret spending time with GY people.

it's like barely three days and i feel much closer and happier than when with tb11 for one year. sorry tb11 people, i know it's kind of f-ed up of me to say this but i cant agree more with it. its like some of us agree to that sentence. real sorry if i hurt any feelings, but you people are still great. even some of us are not classmates anymore but we can still be good friends =) don't worry i won't forget the fun we had in my first year.

alright back to topic. well, now i have to make a choice. campus life or gratitude? i really wish to experience new stuffs but i have my commitments too. rather awkward to open up and discuss about this problem with my boss but still will do it tmr night. hopefully all will go well..... well, hope?

and i'm rather traumatized by some recent events that i cant possibly imagine would happen. seriously stop suan-ing me or i will get emo, like literally. okay i should think positively, maybe **** is just trying to treat me like a good friend or brother, due to my outgoing nature. but anything further than that i will get emo. argh!

okay. shall try to stop thinking abt this. rather frustrating and tired you know? hope i won't get so emo...

emo... not

*sighs* bAoc ended like, 3days ago yet i'm unable to forget about the memorable time spent, even if all the fun really comes in the the meagre 3days of orientation. seriously, this is the only time other than my wild days and secondary school days that i feel real nostalgic about.

call that affinity.

seriously, recalling back when we signed up for bAoc, its only a mere coincident that we were in group1, now also know as Gusto Yamataikoku. it's just a random choice to write our names down quickly and have lunch earlier, but never did we expect to have so much fun and joy in working as a team and those friendships that we bonded and the company that we shared.

now that i had so much fun in bAoc, i'm asking for more. that's us human; we are never really satisfied. well, i'm sure that i will most probably be signing up for bAoc once again if felicia runs for SCO. it was fun working with her and im looking forward for another chance. unfortunately one thing that sets me back is my work.

i work for money, don't everyone really do? but i also work for the gratitude and loyalty for my boss, for the care and concern he and my colleagues give. those who are real close to me will know how awkward it is for me to even open my mouth and ask for more than one off per week, lest to say quit working unless i'm out to my wits end.

then again, i want to be more involved in campus life! i want to join a cca, i want to join events that will expose me to more stuffs and experience more! i want to get to know more friends, being the outgoing and extrovert nature of me. i want this i want that, but there's a limitation to it. we all have our own responsibilities but we also only have 24hours a day, 365 days a week.
*p.s. i also want to learn license.

now is the question. am i going to see another year almost wasted in studying and slog my after school hours working or am i going to work lesser and get involve in campus life and experience new stuffs. i'm in such a dilemma even though i know it's pretty obvious that almost all of you will ask me to choose the latter. *sighs* it's now that i don't want too, but i'm in an awkward position to choose..

okay, school starting tomorrow, gotta turn in early. at least i let out all these thoughts and feelings out instead of coping them in my heart, i'm scare of getting heart disease. now i need to rest before sorting out my thoughts. anyone who seriously wish to help me sort out my thoughts can feel free to talk to me either in person, on the phone or when i'm online. goodnight world, i really need to rest..........

gusto yamataikoku

GY OEI! GY OEI! GY OEI!

that's what i call a true team spirit. well done Gusto Yamataikoku. though i was barely with you all for the preparation (well i did come back quite a few times.. well.. ) yea, but these 4days spent with you people, each and everyone of you are well cherished. seriously i did not expect to have so much joy and fun being in orientation, but all the laughter and dancing to the cheering and highness, to the friendship and cam-whoring really made my holidays.

to the SBs, SCs, SCOs and ASCO of GY, i love you guys! (wait, not like literally... all =x). haha, seriously i think no other teams have better team spirit, team effort and the whole "feel" of the team than us GY. from the eve of orientation when we chiong-ed to get everything done and till today when we joined the whole big BA family to cheer for the inter-school challenge, all the friends that i've made during this orientation, i really enjoyed it.

and to the freshies from GY6(if you ever see this...), thank you for your supports during this orientation. we cheered hard, we shouted our lungs out, we supported each other during the games. thank you boys and girls. hope to see you guys soon in school and perhaps, an outing? hah, enjoy your poly life!

though we got second, but deep down inside our heart we know we are the champion. champion we are, champion we will. next yr let us all work together again and win the championship back!

alright shall stop here before getting all too sentimental. last but not least....


dailamo dailamo~ okay out of point.

GY OEI! NO MERCY! KILL! KILL! KILL!

too many yet too little

you know how sometimes, when you want to open your mouth to say something, yet you don't know how or why, you just can't do it. it is even worse when it happens to you and your family.

these few days i was in m'sia with my parents to clean my grandparents' and uncle's graves. we normally use this occasion to catch up with each other, lepak-lepak while my relatives will drive us around to savour the taste of delicious hawker foods while showing us the development of M'sia.

i hate this but i had not been feeling well for the past year that i went back. it's like a curse that i will fall sick once i reached m'sia. who to blame but myself for not taking good care before the trip?

but i don't know why, there seems to be this awkward sense around me and my paternal cousins while the others can mix around so well. perhaps i only get to see them once or maybe at most, twice a year. but after all, we're still cousins. we're suppose to be able to relate to each other. i guess the only cousin whom i can talk to is my 2nd uncle's son, even though our age difference is not the smallest.

i had this cousin whom even asked her mum,
"mummy, who's that black colour tee shirt guy?"

omg i think she didn't know i heard those words, but it really really sets me wondering: am i too distant away from them that they don't even know me?;

*sigh* hope everything will get better next year when i go back, if i have the opportunity.

oh and i had a very pissed moment before i came back to s'pore. the worst nightmare that looms over you is when you cannot go home. i almost had this nightmare. was supposed to board a 830pm bus back to s'pore with my parents, but the bus company, Damai Express suddenly said that the bus was spoiled. okay nvm we waited for the next available bus that they offered us, and wtf? there were repetitive seats number in the tickets. so those really unlucky one couldn't board the bus and had to settle for a real old and cranky one. moreover one bus company problem suddenly became 3 bus companies coming to settle it, which further proved that my dad's suspicious of them exchanging tickets among themselves to earn commission right.

this is not to the end of story. the bus driver smoked in the bus while driving, and i had the worst luck to sit right behind the resting driver. so he had his seat laid back all the way, giving me little leg room. and the bus was supposed to reach s'pore, but it never happen. we were en route to somewhere in johore and was told to take a bus to the custom then to s'pore. like seriously ridiculous.

oh well, better put these things behind me first. so much for being grouchy. tmr's bAoc first day, better turn in soon. freshies all coming! xiao mei mei here i come! xD

wondering......

sometimes, daydreaming may be such a wonderful thing that you may never know. just sit down there, staring into spaces, with your brain juice squeezing out ideas that you will never thought of when you're made to think.

well, i thought about some bizarre idea that i think i will not do or be able to accomplish after thinking back. these ideas are totally weird and i bet that all of you will feel that i have nothing else better to do when i list some of them.

1. writing a letter to the town council, requesting them to set up a cricket playground in an open field for the foreign workers.
2. setting up a jamming studio for those kids out there taking drugs, sniffing gum to focus on better stuffs such as music.

weird eh?
okay, that aside. i still don't know who's in my class yet, other than those tb11 people and mizie. sian, school going to start soon, and that mean orientation going to start soon too. hopefully all the chio freshies come to my group. haha!

oh! and i shall be leaving for msia on fri. back on sun. anything you want to contact me just email me or tag here. kk ciao!

nostalgic

reminisce. what a familiar term. yea, absence make the heart grow fonder. it's like, nobody in the world can ever forget about their own interest, unless they are some retards or diagnose with short-term memory.

well i kinda missed those days when i was really cheerful. those young and rebellious days, where i would do anything (well, almost anything..) to reach my goals. like nothing in the world can stop you, and if the sky fell down on me i will just treat it like a blanket. seriously, i think it's my fortune to had those days before, allowing me to see both sides of human and society. the contrast in between is greater than what you had expect.

and i am grateful that i have met some wonderful brothers and friends along. these brothers are so important that they made a big chapter of my growing up years. thank you guys for guiding me, showing me, allowing me to explore the wonders of society and life. though time past and each of us go into different ways, striving to go beyond the horizon and aiming to achieve in life; i must say that it is impossible to forget about our brotherhood. i'm not blogging about this for the sake of blogging, or for the sake of showing my loyalty, but this random thought just came to my mind:

when will we ever gather again as a group?

when will we be able to play bball again like we used to?

when will we be able to hang out around with one another's company?


and many more questions lingering at the back of my mind. but what i know, that we must cherish what we have. it's a 50-50 chances of us getting together. are we able to put back and forget all the angers, suspicious behind us? can we piece together the wonderful, fun moments that we had and be as carefree as before? hmmm..... it's hard. as we mature through ages, we had to take on greater responsibilities. things don't really alway go accordingly to plan this i know.

*sighs* all in all, i just want to say, that i really treasure this brotherly relationship that we had and hopefully have, cause i'm still treating each and everyone of you as one. be honoured my brothers. =)


okay i'm not in the right state of mind to blog about the above entry, but this thought had been filling my mind for quite some time. anyway signing off. tmr morning i will be on a very important mission. zz....

oh and weixia is seriously lame. =D