the parliament?

passed my IEF. but not a very promising result either. over-confident i guess. must work harder, especially for my AAA. haha...

just had SU election meeting earlier in the evening. i am quite satisfied with the top few posts, but come to the other posts, everything was in quite a turn off. all the candidates, are rather unwilling to fill up the position, no real drive to work on it. one even keep complaining this and that, what more can i say? i think this is why SU are not really that popular in the poly. the nonchalant attitude given by some of the Excos, or even the Union representatives really turns my day off.. and most importantly, i feel that the agenda on the committee's mind is not really right. as SU, we should help fight for students' welfare and right, just like what trade unions do to labours. but almost every introduction speech made by them were like more towards cleaning up the mess made by SU and make a positive impression on students. right don't use talk the talk; walk the walk! hopefully this year SU will be better. =/

after the meeting was talking to shihui, the president of ICT society, (weekok and co, don't think too much on the name.. lol!) while waiting for issac. were discussing about the possibility of holding an inter-school event, or maybe a collaboration event to help students interact. haha, the idea was there, but we need more detailed points for it to work out. maybe soon, haha..

then i went to meet ice cream boy, tua pau, ahboy and sexy for dinner. went botak there, this time round i have cajun chicken. wooo big delicious serving, i like! =D cheese always make my appetite, well, other than overdoes of cheesecake. haha..

alright, i go enjoy by pop/jazz music while chiong projects liao. till next time..

aspiration

woots sch reopen was met with a disaster. i flunked my AAA like big time. nothing to gloat about for me seriously, if i want to keep up the pace and well, secure my place in MC. hopefully it's not too late to learn most of the stuffs in term1. hah! well, maybe i will need some help, who knows?

anyway, not really going to blog much about results. went for the OCBC career talk today. it was basically, how to prepare ourselves for job interview and, just promoting the careers in OCBC. which lead me to think about this: what do we aspire to be?

when i was young, i was fascinated by policemen and superheroes. i aspire to be them. then sports came into my life and i wanted to be a soccer player. that changed when i started playing basketball. but then again, due to some unexplainable circumstances i gave up on that dream. yea, keep it inside yourself if you know that reason. hah!

then began to learn about automobile. and expose myself to the society, the colourful (tattoos, honour blah blah blah..) and the bad side of it. under the influences of films like 古惑仔, i wanted to be a gangster once, but laugh at how foolish i used to be. haha.. bleak future. and see how cool it was to race down the road, with anime like Initial D coming in, and more friends riding on their sport bikes. then the risk of losing a life, which i treasure, turned me off. maybe just a driver, but no racer.

then came arts and music. always in much admiration and respect to those musicians who can move people, influencing them lots. be in soul, rock, jazz, pop, metal.. as long as people look up to you, you're great. then i wanted to be a rock star, either a drummer (gotta brush up on that), or a rock star vocalist (don't laugh people. i know i can't sing well but i can scream =D ), head banging, jumping around on stage, stage jump, and moving people to my music. haha, look at the talent of Singapore's rock? underground may work though..

now coming into poly, choosing business as a core module. where do my interest lies? till now i'm not that sure myself either. let's look at the more practical side of Singaporeans' careers. i enjoy gourmet foods, i can eat but cant really cook. but i used to aspire to be one. i enjoy graphic designs, always in awe of the cool, lively and vibrant work of art by designers. i also enjoy building and fixing stuffs, always attempting to D.I.Y. stuffs around me.

but everything seems to revolve around the environment that surrounds me. so what lies ahead of me, though i know it's in my hand, but i dont know where to go seriously. shall wait and see as time passes by.. so....

what do you possess?

dont worry people, just blogging some thoughts on my mind. till then, goodluck for results and.. same to me too. haha.. cheers! =D

leadership.

for the past two days i was at the students' leader seminar held by the school. it was enriching for me of course, since i never really had any course or talk about leadership, and quite a eye-opener. in general i must say that i learn a lot of stuffs from the seminar. yea, pass it on. hah!

made some new friends in the seminar itself. expose myself to more politics stuffs, which sometimes im real disgusted by it. played bonding games which gave me ideas for MSA camp. yay!

oh, talking about leader. i suppose all of you will know that a leader is someone whom the followers elect, and they elect through the charisma, personality and abilities of the "leader". there's this one guy, who wants to run for presidency in students' union. but the way he present himself in day 1 (well day2 he was absent, what can i say?), the over-confidence in him, the means he got into the exco.. i'm totally disgusted about it. let just say i will not vote for him, and if ever he get voted, i will start a riot (as in, argument =D ). guess that's what happen after knowing so many revolutions from my history syllabus. im a freedom fighter!

alright i don't really know what else more to blog for now. ah! bon voyage to those going for their oversea field trips soon. and i guess i need to keep the mood to play for now, gotta rush projects liao.....

sober

sometime we wonder how far is far, how close is close? these are some limitations that we ourselves do not know, if we had done enough, or had we went overboard? its until when the effects set in do we realise what exactly are we doing?

sometimes we fear something in our heart, but our mind constantly tell us that we will be able to overcome it. mind over heart, or vice versa? we humans are such wonderful yet queer creatures that we cannot explain or accurately pin point the reason why. ambiguous cases do appear here and there, without reason, without warning.

i don't know why and when thoughts and reflections got into me. maybe i was having too much fun that i didn't really care that much. it was only when i was still sober, while on the verge to getting drunk that i began to think alot, after all that highness there'll be a low down, just like having a ying in every yang. i always believe life is like a sine graph, it goes up and down. and i suddenly feel that it is during life's "down" period that we start to self-reflect and change for the better, well hopefully...

what i reflected just now, is that i had ignored quite a few people's emotion and natural characteristic, which is hard for them to change. maybe the extrovert side of me got over myself too much that i alway try to engage people. like what henry told me, some people may not like it. it's natural for them, and they may dislike to do certain stuffs. i feel that i had been selfish enough for things to go my way while sacrificing others' feelings. it's like forcing my way through a wall against other's natural characteristic. yes my bad =(

anyway i hope that these people will not hold it against me. (no i'm not pin-pointing to any particular person pls! it just in a general context..) sometimes i get too firm in my decision and beliefs that it became natural for me to hit the wall. oh well, life is such a wonder!

okay so i think i need to rush projects now. wait, its a must! hah! gonna chao pia projects liao, esp for IEF, and society projs too! ohmy! oh and we spring cleaned the society room. it look so bright and vibrant with the new coat of paint on. next up is to arrange everything. woots! something to look forward to in the next one year in bAs. =)

and to my dear feli, clemmy and gifford. don't be disheartened by the recruitment eh? like what caleb wrote in the Gy blog, we should cherish the moments and friendships we had. remember Yamatai KILL! KILL! KILL! maybe next year some of the freshies will be able to cont the legacy! =)

alright i better turn in now, meeting tmr.............

changes.

have you ever wonder how amazingly the world is crafted, how beautiful creatures are formed and changed to fight for survival in this competitive environment, and how they adapt to these changes. a person's behaviour is largely based on the environment they are in. this is why, you can see a person change when he or she moves into a new phase of their life. it's like, a social norm that none of us can avoid, be it positive or negative.

that's why the phrase, "people change" and the most common question, "why has he/she changed so much?". this is self-explainable i suppose?

but we human beings are more than special. we possess something called "feeling" and as we changes we tend to have a little bit of nostalgia somewhere in their heart, at some places or maybe with someone else. inevitable i guess, but that's how we human works.

i must say, over the years, i had been missing a lot of people. from those botak boys from 4h and gang, to my secondary school friends on and off the court to tb11 and some of close friendships outside school. suddenly i feel like i want tb11 to be together as a class again, but for some reason drop the idea again. how contradicting. see how random i can get?

sometime things cannot be brought back once its over. same for tb11. though our friendship are still there, the fun memories we had, but still we are not really going to go out as a class that much, or experience the feeling again. i came to realise that i missed out on a lot of good stuffs the past years. hope that i can cherish it from now on. =/

okay maybe i'm just too tired so i anyhow blabber. oh well random me is striking back again.

big hole

woots. kena dua-ed big time in 2 days. haha.

sun was supposed to go out with yao and zx. in the end yao cannot make it. then my dad wanted to fix the curtain railing, in the end he said the one that we bought was not suitable. so he did not fix it. it was like, "omg after the curtain i can go buy the carpet and fix my drums", and i was pretty excited in my heart. but the curtain didn't came, so my dream didn't came too. it's like an after effect, then my whole mood that day was pretty much sucky. haha.

tues was the ulitmate. power98fm trip was a disaster. supposed to meet at CMPB guard house at 220pm? then i woke up round 130. okay so afraid of being late, i cabbed down. then, i waited. the teachers came and we waited.... for an hour? then the teacher just gave up hope and cancelled the trip. it's like, wtf? im the only student present there and waited for almost an hour and now you're calling it off? zzz..

alright at least after that i went to chill. had my virgin botak jones at depot road, their new outlet. tried the fish and chip. the taste was quite unique from others i had before, with a pinch of garlic taste i guess. but the serving was very generous, especially the chips. went town with mjie and sherwin to watch Pirates of the Caribbean. it was pretty much nice, and captain jack sparrow being that hilarious as usual. haha, before that went to walk around, well.. just walked and window shopped.=/ haha i want to go shopping! pls let me strike lottery =x

mon was also quite enjoyable. had MSA meeting at pasir ris. weiting almost enter the female toilet unknowingly, Mel learned how to cycle, and ChristinaE driving was, adventurous i must say. haha. "omg where are we now?" quite fun actually to have your friend driving you around. then had the feeling-lagi-shiok bak chor mee at longhouse. seriously the best i had tried in my life. the taste is so unique, plus the soup... ooooo i want to have it. come to think of that, i also want to try the depot road claypot laksa at queensway there. rah! i want a van!!!

okay first i need to have my basic theory then car license. haha. oh and lots of money to buy, or maybe lots of luck to win lucky draw with a vehicle as the grand prize. haha..

break

common test is over! time to party! haha, well not exactly party but still... yea relax. this common test doesn't feel like a common test. i don't get nervous, i don't get stressed over it. like totally. been in a holiday mood all along. started studying for every module like just 12hours before the paper itself. then also rely a lot on my feeling in answering the questions. haha! oh well..

holiday is here! after the last paper ytd went to malaysia high commission for the OITP stuffs. yes i'm going over to malaysia for my attachment. after that went to sing k with mjie, karen, weixia and shermain and huier. heh, went to bought the tweety bird for my cousin's belated bdae present. oh sugar daddy!

so 2weeks of break, doesn't seems to much of a break either. lots of projects to chiong, lots of catching up to do, lots of meeting to attend to. hah! but gladly i'm enjoying quite a bit. and hopefully my drums can be set up by the holidays, still waiting for my dad to find time to do the curtain stuffs. so.. yea till then.

everything squeezed into one

great. common test is going on currently and i haven't been studying much. to laugh or to pity me?

i don't know why, but i just cannot find the motivation and drive to mug. then getting frustrated at the sight of me slacking away. oh well, guess what weekok said wad truth. too much thing bothering us, too much stuffs that we haven't put down for us to concentrate. hahaha..

stop procrastinating and focus. like the karate kid. i need to focus.

but actually microsoft minesweeper is quite fun. oh well that was random but hey! it's kinda thrilling to challenge your own best time and complete the thing.

alright i shall stop losing control. like i'm having alter ego =/ time to get back to study...