statement.

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."
-Unholy Confession, Avenged Sevenfold

too much thoughts running up my head. i think i just need to let it out somewhere... but not really here. sometimes when we look back on what happened in our lives, our pasts, we tend to regret on things that we had done or not done enough of. that's normal.

but when we keep searching inside ourselves for all these feelings and thoughts, it's rather agonizing for us to realise how useless we can be. i realised how dumb i was to have done all these things and say all those words that hurt not only others but myself too. that may be the past but reality hurts. wishing for nothing to happen would be impossible, and no matter how hard we try to forget about the ugly past, there will still be a small, undeterred part lingering somewhere in the back of your brain.

rather surprising how easy it was for me to offer counseling to those in needs but how hard it is for me to convince myself. guess i will just have to drill the positive mindset deeper into my mind. hopefully things will get better. oh well.....

zzzzzzz

sooooo exhausted. seems like i am drained off my energy. and its only the second day of attachment. song bo?

met some with some of them just now. some have interesting job, others dull. haha. my job? is confidential. but those who are around me should roughly know what's my job scope about hur? plus the thick thick stuffs in my bag. =)

okay, updating for the sake of update only. haha. i want to do something interesting these few weeks! like cooking? haha, after watching Ratatouille Affair over the weekend, i have the sudden inspiration to learn to cook good food, which i predict will come in handy sooner or later. okay people go watch that movie, you will like it.

till when i hweeling to blog....

school's out!

yipee! exams over. alright a quick review. AAA suddenly seems to be my most confident module. IEF was a killer, a psychotic one in particular killing so many lives. EC, Marketing and OM seriously, i hope i can pass. was crapping through the paper anyway.. so school's out, but i still have attachment coming along, plus lots of upcoming plans and projects. but i am going to enjoy life first nevertheless!

and i recently found the introvert side of me, when i don't talk to anyone about my thoughts and feelings, just keeping everything to myself. a little scary though, looking like an emo kid, but somethings are just hard to explain and express verbally. it's kinda interesting how extrovert (yes my friends who know me) who always encourage people to share their problems and burdens yet i can seems to practice what i preach. ohwell! hopefully everyday will get better.

alright nth much to blog about for now, damn lazy.... till next time?



"why do all good things come to an end?"

yipee yaya yipee yipee ya

alright first at foremost, HAPPY (belated) NATIONAL DAY! woohoo! i am a patriotic person, and i am proud to be a Singaporean, though at times i hope that we can be more open-minded. hah! guess i was the only guy who sang Majulah Singapura out loud outside the Esplanade during National Day when the people inside the water platform are singing it! see! actions speak louder than words.

nothing much special happened recently, other than Mugger Pu springing back into action to mug. and when Pu mugging periods come, it's the peak season for me to have my medicine. so... yeah people out there, please be understanding abit. thank you.

oh and EPL just started last night. what did i say about watching out for Newcastle United? hehehe..

the saga continues (trilogy special!)

guess prayers do work eh?

was getting rather impatient and losing hope about retrieving my (or rather, her) hp back. so off i went to bath and preparing to go to sch. seriously this is one of the rare time i will hear the phone in the living room ringing while i was bathing. i was guessing maybe it is sherwin or karen asking where i am to meet me for the briefing. so when i finish bathing, i called them back. to my pleasant surprise, they told me that my(her) phone was found! yipee!

so the excited me rush outta home after eating the sushi which i found in my fridge. hah! okay so i boarded a SMART cab SHB7374U and met a friendly uncle Tan who did not go by the meter charge, in a good way. haha, we toured around clementi in search for bukit timah cc, as according to his "scroll for direction" is in that area. but all we see are blocks of flats and, upgrading works? after going so many rounds, i told him to drop me off at clementi cc and wait for me to ask direction for the wiser people over there. when i got the address and showed him, he realised that his "scroll" was actually, sad to say outdated despite the many info it has.

so off we went to jalan jurong kechil, and reached bukit timah cc. by now the meter charge should be more than $15 i suppose, but he only charge me $4. how nice! commendation to him for his efforts, but just minus that profanities in conversation. haha!

okay so i called the person who picked up my hp. well he sound real mature, like 25++ of age. but when i met him, he was just a secondary school kid! perhaps if im kind enough i can give him up till JC student. anyway i cannot thank him enough for his kindness and righteousness in returning the hp back to me. 44 missed call, and some funny and holy sms-es received. wow.. but im grateful to him AND my friends who prayed hard and was worrying for my(her) hp..

the rest of the days were as usual, lecture and studying. and my attachment allowance is real... meagre. grrr..

anyway quote of the day: "save water. bath together"

okay. hahahaha tickle me please.

the adventure continues part II

alright where did i stop? oh climbing up the Benjamin Sheares bridge!


okay so as we walked up the stairs, we started to see the light shining from above, well more like from the lamp posts by the highway. when we see the ferris wheel, nothing can describe the joy within us. like, "yes, finally we have a heading to where we are going!". then as we walked we see more familiar sights, like the Millenia Walk and Suntec City, then Fullerton Hotel at the far end.
"wow!", i wondered, "This might be a hot spot on thurs for firework display!"

but now we faced a problem: the road seems never-ending. zz.. so we had no choice but to continue to walk, and when we finally end the journey along this bridge, we realised we had no way to cross the road across to Suntec City. geez, what luck! no choice, so we continued walking across the Nicholl Highway and reached... Bugis! wanted to find a place to rest our precious legs and get some refreshment. so we keep walking yet again...

until we saw one 24hour sign. like hallucination in a desert, without thinking we just walk towards that direction, and as we get nearer we seems to realise the place is Raffles Medical Hospital. oh well who cares? we just want to get refreshments. so we rested well there, too well i must say that suddenly all of us want to go home.

so the journey for that day ends, starting all the way from Geylang to Kallang to Benjamin Sheares Bridge to across Nicholl Highway to Bugis then back home by cab. see how much distance we trekked around the city?

the following day, i had the fright, and disappointment in my life. as we were talking cock on the bus to B.Batok, i realised that something was missing in my pocket and bag. i began to search frantically for it, but to no avail. afraid that i might dropped in at Holland V, i immediately rushed on a cab back there with Karen and Weixia, with their lives almost lost while crossing the road. well, since Ah Boy and The Wild One being at their hometown, i asked them to check with the interchange staffs if i dropped it on the bus, only to know that the bus was sent for cleaning. what luck!

meanwhile at Holland V, alright i want to complain about the cab driver for taking one big round. karma shall fall on him, driving for one week without any passenger! back to topic, the 3 of us combed the area for many times, starting from Essential Brew to the bus stop, back and forth, to no avail. this is the first time i ever feel a pinch of pain after losing my handphone. *sigh*

oh great god. please bring my baby back to me! i shall pray hard.. all of you should to......

takethewalkAROUNDthecity! the adventure part 1.

sometimes, somehow, i began to wonder how skeptical the world might be. im beginning to have this real negative thought that this particular system is bad and corrupt. now i know why mjie hate it so much. hah, like i finally realise. oh well,

anyway that aside, sat went to Suntec to watch WCG. okay maybe not watch, since extreme gaming is not really my cup of tea, but to take attendance. haha, after went to watch the Simpsons! it was hilarious, and as expected some of the parts were quite lame but still i enjoy it. childhood cartoon you know? but i never seems to understand the content when i was a kid, till now. haha! oh and not to malu someone but during the exploding part, someone beside me actually jumped, somehow seemingly shocked. heheh..

okay after that went to get slippers. like finally! quite like the design, but i dont expect it to last long for me to walk confidently on wet surfaces. haha! alright i like that slipper. then popped over to HD as usual. ooh im starting to love the tiramisu flavour!

then we act hero. alright lengthy post so beware.

didn't know where to go. so we walked towards a random direction until we reached a bus stop and,
"Hey, got 51! Can go Geylang eat 豆浆油条!"
"You sure this is the right direction?"
then the bus came, so off we went.

alighted somewhere near Kallang MRT station. okay, chaotic traffic, with the fruit sellers all looking at karen and weixia. hum sup lou ah! then we went to locate the famous shop and happily ate our.. dinper? then as alway, the curious ahboy wanted to go see how does vice activity actually operate, and as usual the steady me, karen and weixia agreed to go, with me leading the way cause i have been there before. IN THE DAY.. i still stand firmly on no casual and pre-marital sex for me!

so i brought them through Lorong 8 and Lorong 12, and let them see how the er-hem social escorts do their business, and tell them about some of my personal experience interacting with these escorts. (decent direct sales business, i still stand firmly on my point!) oh well maybe next time we can go further into Lorong 21, but i had enough for that night. so we went Indoor Stadium to use the toilet -.-" at least walking around the National Stadium do bring back some memories of me working there, watching soccer and such. well there was a mini motorbike race at the carpark outside the stadium, just round and round on mini bikes. so cute!

okay fast forward. slack at the bridge outside Indoor Stadium, talkcock singsong and lepak around. then decide to go Mustafa Center! so as it was late, like past midnight, we could only walked back. so we walked along Geylang river, and so sorta lost. wanted to ask for direction from a driver, but they told me not to cause they were afraid that the driver is drunk, or the possibility that we may get kidnap. what a joke. and we were like directly under Benjamin Sheares bridge. so i suggested,
"Why don't we go up the bridge? More chances leh!"

to be continued...

cheers!

woohoo! another cause of celebration. IS is finally over for this semester! the day i had been looking for this whole term is finally here! hahaha, alright sidetrack a little actually i do still need to go down Suntec this sat to watch WCG for IS, but still the idea of the last lesson today is simply.. mind exploding!

okay so long haven update, also don't know what to update. =/ ohya yesterday was the Ming Jie's Birthday Celebration planning committee annual event. erm abit crap but we enjoyed the funny moments. minds cafe was great as usual, bringing out the laughter and such in us, then the rest of the day was just eat and eat. before that when we had lunch with KPT i also eat eat eat. cause she ordered the food but no one eat, so as ahjunk i junk in all the food. hmm anything else.. oh! and a gay couple was spotted holding hands outside fullerton walking along the flyover towards esplanade. shall post the pic when i have it.

that's all for now. tmr i am going to push myself liao. haha..