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"你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞" - 好朋友, 罗志祥

this song is darn nice, darn meaningful. maybe it reflects on some of our lives. like you had a crush/liking for someone who's close as a friend to you. yet you never had the chance to confess your feelings to that particular person because he/she may be your best friend. it's a decision that either make or break this relationship. what would you do?

sometimes i feel like she's the perfect catch, fitting almost all the criteria for me. but does it happen the on the other party? maybe letting her go, letting her to search and enjoy her happiness will be a better choice. such a dilemma which requires you to give up completely is hard but worthwhile to try. maybe it's time to move on and look for greener pastures elsewhere. who knows? maybe the next person that i'm interested in may be a better catch? but one thing is for sure, is that the memories that we had will alway be stored in the back of the brain.

okay enough of emotional stuffs. we should learn to pull through it and grow stronger. like saying is easier than doing it. been rather stressed up lately despite putting on a strong and happy front. projects, exams, results, work, family relationships and many more. i need an outlet to push all these stress out. yes i know smoking is bad for health and it does a lot of harm. but is better than i coop everything in me and get depression or even worse, die? yes and i know that there are other better ways to relieve stress blah blah blah. now think through, spore is such a competitive and fast-paced. where can i find the time for relaxation and leisure? maybe time is just an excuse, maybe it's because of poor time managements eh? i know what i'm doing. rest assure people. i will not do foolish stuffs. smoking is the limit for me le. after all, i know that many hearts will break if something inauspicious or bad happen to me. so chill guys, i'm a man now. i can take care of myself.

meanwhile, i guess its time for me to rest my mind in deep slumber and get ready for tmr's school and work, plus revision for the upcoming test and retest. till next time, bye.