"The harder you try to ignore and forget about something, the harder it comes back to haunt you"

Life's an irony isn't it? Like how much BFFs around me are enjoying their freedom right, which I am entitled to also, just that mine is a little bit pushed back. Despite that, I still have my responsibility and commitment to work me through, hoping that this can be a good head start for the major concerns. Well, I just couldnt bear to see the efforts go wasted.

And if the 7 deadly sins are pride, wrath, envy, greed, sloth, lust and gluttony, I suppose I have committed all of them, not just once, but many times; like wth?

On a positive side of note, I'm finally done with Poly education. Yay! =D


"Xiang hia di? Hia di mm see cui gong LP song eh hor!" =DD

I don't know why, I keep dwelling on unnecessary things and thinking nowadays. Is it a phase that people do go through when reaching adulthood? *sigh* This is not good especially when you are preparing for your final hurdle in poly education. Geez, I wonder what will happen after that.

有些时候，就是喜欢在空当的角落里，看着空白的墙壁，瞪着空间里，默默地思考，回忆起当初所作所为，似佛是对的选择。有的值得欢呼，有的却只能后悔。历史是让我们更加了解，怎么样去让好的事情重演，而怎么样去避免之前所犯错的事。
人，是有感情的动物。喜怒哀乐这四种情绪，就像风水轮流的转。一个人不能永远的快乐，也不能永远的伤心。走过的路虽然有时非常的煎熬，但路还是要继续地走下去。我们只能够以乐观的方向前进，希望能够开创一个光明的前途。

Alright, I guess I need to sort out my emotions before starting to revise for my last paper. Till then...

mirror

I don't know why, but I suddenly feel very depressed and disappointed about myself. Hopefully after ranting everything that has been twirling in my mind I will feel better and cheer up soon.

Blog-hopping and FB-hopping around, I am quite confused about where I am standing. I see my friends all have a bright future ahead of them, be it career or relationship, and I ponder to myself, "What do I see in me in the near future?". Sound ironic but it's true, I think I somehow begin understand how my sis feel when she still has her class gathering.

You see, not that I'm trying to boast, but the fact that coming from a good school and seeing almost all your friends back then in secondary school acing in their life does serve as a gauge on how far have I achieved. I see my friends are all gearing for their university education, with some having the potential to be a successful lawyers, doctors, army officers and other high-roller jobs, while I'm still at lost on whether I can make it into the university. And having poly mates discussing about further education doesnt help in easing the worries. At the end of the day, when we fight to survive in this dog-eat-dog world, people do give first impression based on how you present yourself and your qualification.

I feel that I am too much of a broad than deep person. Its like I can be interested and know how for quite a number of thing, but never that good enough to excel other people to put myself in a favourable distinct position. There are a lot of examples on this;
I play the drum but will never be good enough for a band;
I love humanities like geography and history, but I can never excel too well in them (other than scoring both A1s during the O's but that's the past);
I am effectively quad-lingual in English, Mandarin, Hokkien and Teochew, and I can have basic conversation and know how to scold vulgarities in Malay, Tamil, Thai, Cantonese but I can never have long conversation in these languages;
I love to dismantle and mantle things around, but I can never get the technical term right at all;
I know basic software skills like Adobe CS, Macromedia, MS office, html codes, video editing, but I wasted my time in computer club procrastinating on the learning of programming skills like C, C+, C++, Visual Basic, Java script etc;
I play quite a number of ball games, but never do concentrate and excel in one;

Turning 21 this year also sorta show sign that I should be matured enough to start pursuing and paving my path for a career. Friends and buddies around me should know that I have alway wanted to start a business on the F&B side, preferably a cafe or restaurant. But looking at my quali now, how am I going to achieve it. Sure I have a cousin and a good friend who are chef, with a number of my friends who can cook quite well, but which of them would really wanted to partner me if ever I have the opportunity to start this business? Furthermore, I do not have any real savings so it will be hard for me finance this biz.

Maybe I can rely on friends. But friends do come and go; seen those and experience those. I envy some of my friends, who have buddies sticking around them for more than half of their life journey so far, the brotherly and family love. Well I do have mine own buddies in secondary, but ever since we graduate and split between JC and poly, things werent that clost anymore. I also have outside friends whom we swear by our brotherhood and alway havoc together in the past, but now with girlfriends, their own families, NS, work, we are more like acquaintance.

Goodness, I'm turning 21 this year already. It should be time for me to find someone who is willing to share my laughter and woes, someone who understand me well, yeah you know it, someone that can be my life long partner. I ain't getting any younger and I still hope to be a father by the age of 29. Hopefully....

Fortunately I still have my poly cliques around, buddies and friends who stood by me all these 3 years, when we laughed tgt, teared tgt, partied tgt, we thon the night to chiong projects tgt, celebrate occasions, pulled through tough times. Yes I am very afraid things will go the same way like how it did for me after O's when we graudate, but you guys do make up most of my life in poly and the transistion period to adulthood. And I'm sorry how sometime I seems so busy and occupied with my society and work stuffs.

Idk why I'm thinking so much now, I guess it all thanks to Harry Low. Idiot. But like I alway say, "Life is like a rollercoaster, it always will have its up and down". Hopefully I can bounce back even higher and start to mug for my final 2 papers in poly and chiong my final lap for society.

cny + projs = happy?

A simple calculation has been made throughout the whole BA cohort i suppose:

Projects + Presentation + CNY (+ maybe CCA) = Happy CNY?

Oh well, projects and presentations are really killing us, but very soon it will be over. Haha.. very soon... well... soon?

This CNY I am not really in the mood. Even my Sis flew off to the her "hometown" to spend this new year. -.-" I got nothing much to say about that. And I realised I just accidentally deleted every photos and videos in my digicam. GG! I guess the only data lost is the zoo outing, Rod's and my bdae celebration and some other random photos/videos.

Oh well, the only CNY thing I'm looking forward to is the reunion later on. 4 generations of Society members gathering together in the room for the one last time (well, shouldn't have anymore gathering..) before CNY eve. How cool is that? And after that will be having a reunion steamboat dinner with the current batch of kids. And of course, since I treat them as kids, well, I prepared something for them.

Haha gotta go alr, go fix the new toy in the room. =D Meanwhile guess the trivia! Happy Lunar New Year!

Last post trivia's ans: Left hand middle finger

Trivia qn: CNY has always been the time to eat the all the goodies and snacks! Which of these is my favourite?

1. Peanut cookies
2. Pineapple tarts
3. Kueh Buluh
4. Love letters

ABC

A food lover will go all out to search for good foods to satisfy his taste buds. That was what I did today morning. =)

Went down to Bukit Merah for a 15mins blood test early in the morning. Finding it rather a waste to travel so far for a short while, I decide to pon lecture (since I will never make it in time for the lesson) and venture out to find some good food alone. Yea sometime travelling alone is good because you need not worry if your companion have elsewhere in mind.

Well I recall that's a hawker around the area which has a lot of good food ratings by ieatishootipost.blogspot site. Feeling hungry I decided to walk around and find it. So I walked and walked aimlessly, trying to find it before succumb to asking around. That was when I found out that it was like 3 long bus stops away. Anyhow, the search continued and I finally found it!

Had the fishball noodle. It was alright, wasn't much in awe with it, but can fight with Longhouse one. Haha, I want to try the Fatty Chong rice and the wanton noodle next time! No pictures available as I forgot to bring camera today.

Rest of the day was rather.. rather not say it.

Anyway, here is the trivia question of the post!

Q: My first tattoo was a small dot on my finger. Can you gues where is it?
1. Left hand index finger
2. Left hand middle finger
3. Right hand index finger
4. Right hand middle finger

And the last post's answer was : What A Girl Wants

Suprising isn't it. Congrats to KPY but too sad, no prize for that! LOL!

clearing out my closet

Alright shall update a little keep my blog "alive". Well actually there isn't much to update about since this two weeks after school reopened I had been chiong-ing project almost everyday after school.

Well shall take a breather after finishing my part for the BB project. And there's still presentations, roadshow, tests, and much more coming my way before I can graduate and retire. Hah.

Anyway, just to spice thing up a little, I shall post a simple, random question after every post to let you people know more about me. Maybe I should name it the "Understand MingJun and treat-him-better in future" game. The answer will be given in the following post. So now presenting the first question.

Q: Which of this Christina Aguilera's song is my all time favourite from her?
1. Genie In A Bottle
2. Beautiful
3. What A Girl Want
4. Candyman

HAHA I SHALL SEE WHO KNOWS ME BETTER!

sianzation

Much known to the Facebook craze, "Pu can't believe that school is starting in a few hours time!"
Yea, kinda not looking forward to this coming term. Its the term when all the hell projects are due. It is also my last term in NP (well, hopefully right?). The emotional part shall leave it to another day. But then again, I'm sure friends and cca will give me the motivation to get to school. =)

Well these few days were spent with meet ups here and there. First is celebrating Rod's bdae, and my belated one. Yea finally everyone can push a date when we are all free to meetup, from work, from commitment, from school projects, from cca etc. Haha, went Fish&Co @ Glasshouse for dinner before mahjong-ing at Rod's house.Two days later was NYE. Spent the day baking cookies and some "ham + potato covered in cheese" thing for the society attending the countdown. I must say that the genes in culinary seems to be passed down to me. But sadly, the cheesy thing did not turn out the way I wanted it to be, still have a lot to learn. So went ECP for countdown, and games, and some unhappening things happened, but who cares? It's the start of a new year so let us just party on!

Oh and the first breakfast spent was with Felicia Chin. OMG people Felicia Chin! Actually she just walked past through Mac @ ECP but who cares? We saw Felicia Chin. Maybe this year would be a lucky one. Haha, but come to think of it, why didn't we went to take photos with her?

Then another 2 days later, it is the so called annual class gathering for 4F'05. Oh well, the numbers that turned out was quite, sad but who cares? We had fun! Haha Aston's then to Minds Cafe, updating each other and sharing the stupid jokes that we used to have. It's alway comforting to know that we still cared for each others despite all these years.

Most of the photos are up on my FB account. If you're interested, just go there and view it. Haha, oh well, school tmr, and a looooong day ahead. Gotta zhao! Ciao and DING TANG TEH!